I suck, I lost.  I'm dishonest, stubborn, immature, lazy, and naughty.  I'm a terrible artist, terrible person, terrible friend too.  Head hurts.  Tired.  Not up to my own standards.  Even I would disapprove.  Terrible dancer too.  Not really good at anything, only at feeling pathetic.  It's not "emo" or anything like that.  Not depression either.  It's just pathetic.