Maybe I would have more friends

if I didn't focus so much on the ones that don't exist anymore

Friday Night Waltz has made me complacent.  Being friends with my idol has made me complacent too.  Seeing people at dance every week...it's fun...but is that really how I want to spend time with my friends?

Still, always, need to try harder, need to try my best.  I need to...right?

It's about time to start on my letters for this year, but...I don't know.

What does it mean, to be "friends"?