Aye.....today was a mixed bag, for sure.

For various reasons, I haven't been having the most restful sleep.  Chalk it up to either that, or a general lacking in mental health, but I was definitely suffering from anxiety at various points through the day, making it a little difficul to focus on stuff, be it work or play.

Still, I managed to record my daily dance video (day 3 of 31...can I keep it going?), and finish off a letter which I needed to get written.  That's not too bad, honestly.

I'm really liking the KTT switches in my keyboard; I'm glad that I decided to go with them in the end.  I can tell because there will be times when I simply want to press and hit / roll keys on my keyboard for fun.  Sure, I miss having the UT4xs installed, but I don't think I got this much pure enjoyment out of just pressing keys down when I had them.  ...and besides, I have another keyboard coming later this year, hahahaha... yes, I know I know, but this one fit the bill -- TKL (well, sans function row), well-built, comes with a pink option, and was being touted as being insanely cheap for the value.  I don't know which switches I'm going to be putting in that board, but I've got a couple of different options, and the aesthetic is going to be really different since this one is not going to be built around the POM Jelly keycaps (it also doesn't have RGB lighting...).

I still have more work to do on the stabilizers for my current board, but eh, not a super high priority (I'd like to do it at some point though).

Baldur's Gate 3 released today, to widespread excitement!  I checked it out briefly and it looks like it might be something that I could have a lot of fun with, actually, so I went ahead and took the purchase; the game is downloading now.  At the very least, it will give me something to look forward to and think about idly as I ponder what class / multiclass combination I want my main character to be.  That alone will provide me fuel to get through the days, I'm sure.

In other news, I started doing Any% (KPDR) speedruns of Super Metroid!  I've learned a few rooms worth of any% strats before (as I was trying to get better at execution for randomizer) but I decided that I really need to kick my SM execution into shape, so I decided to just try the KPDR Any% route.  It's been...quite fun, actually!  I finished my first two runs and have a time of 1 hr 2 minutes.  I'm sure with just a minimal amount of practice I can get that down to a sub-1hr time easily; then I'll have to see if I can shoot for sub 50 minutes, which I'm sure will be a lot more involved of a process.  But the run is a fun one; pretty intense at points but it's got a large variety.  I appreciate that I'm already somewhat practiced at some of the strats (the climb...) so it's not like I'm starting from square one or anything like that.

The day started to turn around later at night when I decided to drink some of my white peony tea.  This is not a tea that I find myself really craving; it's got a pretty bland / light / mild taste, I usually prefer something more earthy like a genmaicha.  But it has special significance for me since it was something I was really drawn to a while back, when my personality was more airy and ethereal (and frail...).  Drinking this tea reminds me of that time, of the peace and calm that can be wrought through simple tranquility -- disassociation, even.  "Retreating into one's inner sanctum", to put it a different way.  I reminded myself during a mild altercation today, that I don't =need= to do anything.  That silence can be safety, for me.  And nobody can take that away from me; at least, not for now.  I dunno...maybe it was just the caffeine that perked me up a bit, but maybe it was also the gentle reminder of doing something that I associated with calmness.  That feeling of staying up late, but not for any sort of stupid degenerate reason.  Just spending time by myself, getting my own thing done.  Peacefully.  Free of judgment from others.  That kind of thing.  That's what this tea reminds me of...gently.

There's still a bunch that I need to get done.  JaSmix logistics have, despite a hiccup here and there, rolled along smoothly...though I'm still nervous for whatever reason that nobody will show up.  Well, I'm glad I don't have to worry about teaching a workshop there, at the very least.

I have an ALTTPR video that I already recorded footage for that I need to narrate and make into reality, just haven't done it yet.  More SM running.  An ALTTPR seed that I'd like to run.  Some healthcare stuff to sort out.  But most of all, Rhythm Quest has been taking a backseat for a bit longer than I'm comfortable with.  Part of that is that my next big action item is a litlte daunting, but a big part of it is just that I've been in pretty poor condition to work on it.  Well, I'm sure I'll be back at it...taking care of myself comes first; I can force myself to work on it later...

I was back at doing One Hour Compo today, but didn't really come up with anything that I was satisfied with.  That's OK.  I've supposedly learned this over years and years of making music, as well as experience with rando...you can't always have successes every single time.  Sometimes your creative output just kind of falls flat, that is just going to happen.  For me, it's easiest to just accept and expect that, and when a song isn't working out, just call it quits and move onto the next one.  I actually started three different songs during the hour tonight, and posted two of them, and wasn't thrilled by either of them.  But yeah, that'll happen.

We'll see how tomorrow goes, I guess.  I'm feeling a little more hopeful about it now than I was earlier in the day, at least.