I have grown, so much, perhaps even realizing it.  In ways that I both accept, and don't accept.  Where I am today is not where I am destined to be.  I will never truly be at that place.  It is a futile endeavor.  But still we struggle, because that is what gives life meaning.  Life, itself, is futile.  But we still try.  So believe in yourself.  Even when your cause is hopeless, believe in yourself.