Sayaka, I think I might understand you more now.

Just pasting some things down.

Nearly all of the problematic characteristics described above can be attributed in various degrees to the ISFJs internally mapped and abstract view of the world not being successfully coupled to an appropriate level of Extroverted feeling. Without this rational external balance, the ISFJs opposing unconscious functions can wreak havoc upon the order and sense of the ISFJs perceptions and ideas. ISFJs are usually stable, certain, reliable and deft in their approach to life. But if unbalanced, they are likely to treat any point of view other than their own with a kind of cold dismay, and if pressed hard will tend to shut out the existence of problems caused by others differing attitudes and opinions. If the ISFJ does not learn how to deal with the wide range of differing world views they come into contact with, they can find themselves closed into a lonely little corner of the world in which only their own feelings of safety and certainty are maintained. This is a natural survival technique for the extreme ISFJ personality.
The main driver to the ISFJ personality is Introverted Sensing, whose function is to define the properties of and locate and recognise the sometimes abstract and innate qualities of and between the objects of the outer world. If an ISFJ's picture of the world is threatened by external influences, the ISFJ generally tries to shut such new information out of their lives. This is totally natural, and works well to protect the individual psyche from getting hurt. However, the ISFJ who exercises this type of self-protection regularly will become closed within a small and ever decreasing circle of those family and friends who do not actively disturb their increasingly narrow and rigid world view. They will always find justification for their own inappropriate behaviours, and will always find fault with the outside world for problems that they have in their lives. It will be difficult for them to maintain close personal relationships because they will have a negatively polarised and therefore limited ability to communicate outside of the box of their own security needs.
It is not an uncommon tendency for the ISFJ to support their ideas and values by using only the value judgements they make about the world and other peoples behaviour. However, if this tendency is given free reign, the resulting ISFJ personality is too self-centred to be happy or successful. Since the ISFJ's dominant function is Introverted Sensing, they must balance this with an auxiliary Extraverted Feeling function. If the ISFJ uses Extraverted Feeling only to serve the purposes of Introverted Sensing, then the ISFJ is not using Extraversion effectively at all. As a result, the ISFJ does not sufficiently recognise and sympathise with the way feelings effect the behaviour of others in the world to have a good sense of why things happen as they do. They see nothing but their own perspective, and deal with the world only so far as they need to in order to support their perspective. These individuals usually come across as somewhat judgemental and full of fixed and often rather ambiguously polarised ideas about the world. Other people are often surprised by the vehemence of their ideas and are usually unable to understand how they came by them.

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I think the thing is that ISFJs tend to need emotional consistency in our lives, and when it's not there, we start to worry. We like to know that things aren't changing, because when certain things change, it really stresses us out.


When our inferior Ne takes over, we start worrying about all of the negative possibilities. This is especially bad when we don't have access to information. When we don't know something, we'll imagine that the worst case scenario is actually the truth. We do this because we like to be prepared for everything. Things are much less stressful to us when we know that they're coming.

It's extremely stressful for me to be unexpectedly hit with something negative, especially if I have to react quickly. When that happens, I go into panic mode, because I can't adapt to it quickly. So, I always prefer to know when something bad is coming, because that way I can take my time to get ready for it and stretch out my emotions over time.


So, when a bad thing is going to happen, I'd rather know about it as early as possible so I can prepare for it.


So the problem is that if I don't know if something bad is going to happen or not, I'm stuck...I don't know whether to try to prepare for it or not. So my default position is to try to assume that the worst will happen, and to start preparing for it. This is inferior Ne in a nutshell.


However, what the ISFJ Growth link discusses (and a few other MBTI books mention as well), is that as ISFJs, we need to make sure we don't jump to these negative assumptions without any proof. We should only believe negative things if we know for sure that they're coming. Otherwise, we're over-worrying about something that probably won't ever even happen. This has happened to me a number of times.

The past few days have been...alright.

Christmas came and went.  Somehow, I found it upon me sooner than I had expected...I was wrapping gifts last-minute, making deliveries without planning everything out beforehand.  I missed my deadline for E, which was sad.  There's one person I still don't really have a present for, and I don't know if I will.  I found myself remarking that I hadn't really gotten hyped up about Christmas this year, it seemed.  It almost seemed like I was a lot more excited about it a month or two ago, before we actually got here.  I was looking forward to the winter weather, and the holiday spirit, and seeing friends; people like C and B.  I did get to see C and B, actually, which was really really nice.  I'm going to spend some more time with them soon, maybe this weekend or something.  I really want to spend time with them.

I think part of it is just that the sudden burst of cold that we got kind of threw things off balance a bit.  But I think more importantly, I was sort of caught off guard by Christmas actually being here.  And I think that's in big part due to the conflicting feelings I've been having about...well, everything, but Christmas letters specifically.  I wasn't on top of my letters and my presents and everything because I simply didn't know how I was supposed to feel about them.  I'm still not exactly sure about how I'm supposed to feel about it.  Did I do the right thing this year?  I'm not sure.  I think that it's a mistake to go on like I did for all these years and write all of these letters that may be "meaningless" in the end.  I think that's a mistake.  But somehow the way that I did things this year feels so hollow in comparison.

My idol wasn't around for Christmas this year, which I was sad about because I would have liked to spend time with her during it.  But I did get to see her recently, so that was nice, I guess.  I was actually extremely happy to get a letter from K; she is definitely the person who has come through time and time again in thinking of me and writing to me, and that really impresses me.  I almost decided not to send her a letter this year; after all, can we really be considered "friends" anymore if we know so little about each other's lives?  But I wrote to her anyways, remembering how faithful she is in still writing to me, and I got another one this year too.  It's really wonderful.

I had a bit of a revelation about someone today.  Not that ground-breaking, but sort of a realization that helped me attain a bit of closure.  That sort of "realization" moment has happened to me before, when I decided that it was okay for me not to like dancing with a certain person, because I realized exactly what it was about them that made me feel that way, and I was okay with avoiding them because of it.  This time again, I realized something about my relationship with someone, and although it can't change how I feel about them, it sort of puts me at ease knowing that I understand why things became the way that they are now.  And, I guess, knowing that it's not because of a mistake or anything.

I've been spending a lot of time either doing relatively nothing at home, or spending time with my two guy friends (not together).  I finished both Mega Man 10 =and= FEZ this week, which is actually really awesome--it's not very often that I get to actually check games off my list like this.

Family gatherings are becoming a little less tolerable for me, I feel.  It's not anything bad with them; I just find that I can't handle it as well.

My new phone case finally came in!  I'm really happy with it, and so happy that it arrived.  It looks great, and lets me attach my charms to my phone too.  It just feels wonderful having a proper phone, now that I have a Little Twin Stars case and now that I can have charms dangling out of my pocket again.  Phones really don't feel right to me without charms on them; they really really don't.

My room was in disarray...has been in disarray.  I sort of cleaned up a good portion of it, but there's still some stuff that needs to be put away.  The bigger problem is all of the pencil boards, posters, and prints that have been falling off the walls.  I stopped dealing with them and putting them back on, partly because I got overwhelmed and just was busy with other things (no...more like I just got too lazy), but mostly....mostly because I don't really know what to do about it.  I don't mean that in a practical sense, like in "what should I do to fix this problem?".  No, I mean I don't know what to do with my room, and all of the decorations.  I don't know whether I should move out of my current place and just rent a studio all by myself so that I can have a different atmosphere, have a change of pace, have a "sanctuary" to my own again.  I don't know whether I should keep all of my wall decorations on, or start taking them all down and simplify my room decorations to a more normal state.  Or should I reorganize them all, taking some down that aren't important anymore, and taking down the ones that are hard to keep up?  I don't know.

Just like I don't know whether to get highlights either.  I keep talking and talking about it with my friends, but I never reached any decision or conclusion.  I thought I did at one point, when I was like "I've thought about this enough; I think I just need to go and do it.", but my mind still isn't sold on it, and I still don't know what color of highlights I would get.  I might just not end up doing it after all.  I don't know.  I really don't know, I'm sorry.

Today was pretty miserable.  I spent most of the day doing nothing, really.  I did some work, yes, but not that much.  I fed my friend's cats, which was good.  I uploaded the Match Girl OST, and I did OHC.  But the afternoon was totally wasted.  I was just sitting in bed, thinking to myself that I had no idea what to do or how to feel.  I stared at my room and all of the decorations that are falling off the walls, and I just didn't know anything.  And I thought of the Timm[ie] from 2 years ago, that knew himself so well, that was so confident and so peaceful, and so...so awesome.  And I cried, I cried because I have totally lost that, and I don't know what to do, if I can get it back, if I should even get it  back.  I don't even know.

I spent the rest of the afternoon just sort of sitting and lying there feeling pitiful for myself because, you know, that's what I do when I get like that.  I wasn't really depressed, actually--I was just...-sad-.  I guess those two words might not have the same connotations for you as they do for me, but that's a difference that I felt.  The only other real thing I did was read some random things on the MBTI/Myers-Briggs forums.

I'm really sick and tired of this.  I don't know what I want or what I'm supposed to want.

Someday, I hope.  But not today.  today i am simply paralyzed

Someday I'll get myself back again.

Perhaps, the fact that I have this "capacity" for sadness, my "reservoir of tears", the ability to just feel like crying whenever someone holds me; perhaps it means that I have never been truly happy all of this time.  How pathetic.  And when someone else is sad, I would just think selfishly of myself, and how if they need a hug, I can feel better too, because I would get one.  And I would just spend time talking with people, all the while wishing I could burden them with my sadness.  Isn't that all my world is?  Just sadness, and inflicting it upon others.

When was the last time that I was happy?  Was it months ago?  Years ago?  Was it before I left college?  Was it in high school?  Was it before I separated from my mother?

That's a really stupid way of thinking, isn't it?  My world isn't all sadness.  It's dancing, making people smile, writing beautiful music, doing well at my job, learning to make friends, talking about feelings, having nice conversations, writing letters, buying presents, loving cloudy days, reminiscing about stories from marching band, ditching class, cooking, watching anime, loving Cinnamoroll and the Little Twin Stars, and being awesome.  How can I say that my world is full of sadness?  Is my world that short-sighted?  Narrow-minded?

"Who am I?"  Who are YOU?  Who are you, to be reading my blog and judging me, judging me, do you even know how much history is behind my writings here?  Do you even understand what I mean when I say "being Timm[ie]", when I say "sucks dirt", when I say "fickle!"?  I'm stupid.  Stupid, stupid, stupid.

It's crunch time for xmas letters again!  I've got 11 done so far, and hoping to get maybe 9 more or so.  Jeez, 20 is so...so FEW!  It's not really that 20 is a small number or anything, but more that sending out only 20 means that there's going to be so many people who I'm not going to be able to get letters to this year.  It feels really strange...

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Makes me cry every time.

Should I become a Hikikomori?

Isn't everything that I write in here sad?  What if someday I really am truly sad, and need help?  What then?  Wouldn't that just be the same as always?

For once, I actually thought about deleting this post.  I'm afraid.

"The trouble with life is that sometimes it's just like building a sand castle. You spend hours and hours scrounging out every meticulous detail, all the while knowing that the thing will fall apart in the end. Then just as things are just where you want them to be, the winds kick up or the tide comes in and the half the damn thing disappears into the universe. Then you sigh and start piling up the sand again."
--Lewis Hom

This relates to the life crisis I had a little while ago ^^;

Let's embrace everything...not only the smiles, but the cries, too, the feelings of want, the loneliness, guilt, depression, anxiety, stress, happiness, hunger, shyness, courage, admiration, self-deprecation...don't hide any of it.

I'm not sure what to write.  Are words really a good enough way to convey emotions?  I guess that's one of the reasons I should try to learn how to draw.  Don't want to tell a story, just want to paint a picture.  But, how?

I'm both happy and sad, but I know exactly why I am happy and I know exactly why I am sad.

why am i awake

Stood out on the field after watching the band kids.  Not my field anymore, not even close.  But it used to be there.  Went out and told the DM that she did a good job.  She probably had no idea who I was, but it doesn't matter ^^;  K actually recognized me this time, hah!

I was standing out there and I couldn't help but feel jealous of those kids.  Getting to march a show like that is simply wonderful, amazing.  Seemed even cooler than any of the ones I did, but I'm sure I'm not really thinking about it objectively.  Sure is cooler than standing up there on the podium and being DM, that's for sure.  Damn, why the hell did I give away my final year of marching?  Haha, no, I don't regret it; all the stuff that I could do as DM made up for it, but still, nothing really beats actually being out there.

Anyways, I was feeling jealous of them, but it just hit me today that being in Deca is almost like being in colorguard--hey, it's the one section I never got to be in through my years in band! (winds?  check.  pit?  check.  drumline?  check.  DM?  check.)  And it's like having 100% good kids!  Well, they're not even kids at all, which is probably why it's so much better, huh?  And hey, we even have great section leaders!

Back to the band room...once more.  They're having their final home show in about an hour.  I'd rather see them for senior 8s and such, but I might be doing OHC at that time.

How will it feel?

Don't ask until you're ready to hear both responses.

Big tech companies, why u make internet suck so much?

Hold me...just hold me forever...

I think that in at least some way, I was still right.  But I guess I've changed...I think this is the first time that I caught myself realizing that I was also really wrong in a lot of ways.

It's really weird to look back upon something that I felt so strongly and not feel that anymore.  I guess time really does a lot to you.  Time, and people too.

Can I just blame PMS?  I know it's not, but can I?  Why do I feel the need to, anyways?  I should be more honest with myself.  I don't like people who aren't honest with themselves, after all.  Isn't it a strength to be able to just say who you are and believe in it?  That's really funny.  It's really ironic, actually.  Because it wasn't until I started doubting doubting myself, that I started seeing other people just being themselves as being so admirable.  Does that even make any sense?  I don't know.  Why was I wanting to cry again?  Not out of sadness, surely.

My blog was pretty irresponsible, wasn't it?  Did you know that I used to identify as a misanthrope and a misandrist?  I was, too, I think.

Can you face yourself?

Trying to be perfect has always been one of my biggest imperfections :)

It's quite obvious, when I think back on it, why I felt so off-put about the ending of Pita-Ten when I first read it.  The ending is about moving on, about letting go, about new hope, and embracing the brightness that still remains in life even after the shadows.  But I couldn't accept that yet, because I myself wasn't ready to move on.  I still wanted to cling to the past, and I wanted to remain in that state...I didn't yet have the courage to look forward.

There's a particular feeling that I get, when I'm experiencing something that I know is important to someone else.  Do you know what I'm talking about at all?  Like, if I was just reacting to that by itself, I wouldn't think nearly as much of it, or the same way, but somehow, knowing that it's important to someone, especially someone close, makes it seem really different.  What is that feeling, exactly?  Is it a feeling of, "I wish I could understand this, too?"  Or is it "Why can't I understand this the way that they do?"  Haha, it's probably the latter, because I know I've been stressing too much about these things, subconsciously.  It's so weird though.  I'm actually almost "afraid" (not the right word) to watch Miyazaki films because every time I think about it I get this sense of "what am I supposed to think about this?"  Like...I won't be able to find my own thoughts about it anymore because I'll be too busy thinking about what other people might have thought about it.  Does that make sense?

I'm not sure what to write, and not sure how I will feel when I'm finally back...but I don't really care ^^

"If the world is round, then you only need to look at it the right way in order to be on top of the world!"

I said that once.  What happened?  What the hell happened?

I've had this feeling recently, that I don't have a direction.  It's weird, because I know things that I want to do, I know things that I want to accomplish, and I know things that I like and dislike.  But somehow, it seems like I'm just sort of going through the motions sometimes.  Have you ever felt that way?  I'm not sure what it is, really.  What do I really want?  Where am I going?

It's raining today.  The atmosphere is really different here.  It's quite beautiful outside, but somehow it feels different.  Somehow it's not a kind of beautiful that would make me go outside and skip around and breathe in the fresh air.  Maybe because it's foreign and unfamiliar, and there are so many associated thoughts swimming around it.

Why did I start drawing, I wonder?  It's fun, I guess, but really, what is my reason for drawing?  I told my idol once that my reason is because I saw other artworks that evoked strong feelings in me, and that inspired me.  Is that really the reason?  I wonder, sometimes, if I'm just trying to follow along.  I don't think that's it, but sometimes when I sit down to draw, I can't really figure out why I'm doing it.  I don't know what I want to draw, maybe.

The tempo of life is...I'm not sure where it is, actually.  I've lost a sense of time, of rhythm, of flow.  I don't think it's like life is moving too quickly, or that I've "lost my rhythm".  More like I can't seem to sync up; that I can't even sense the natural progression.  Things change, but am I feeling it?  It feels rather surreal.

That feeling of dread went away, I think, for now.  That's really a relief...I really don't want that feeling.  The thing that worries me about that feeling, too, is that it's so new and foreign and strange.  It didn't used to happen, so when I feel that way, it just makes me think like something is wrong; that I went down the wrong path somewhere.  What path am I on?

I wonder if I just need to try and find a way to smile and be happy.  Is that all that it is?  Maybe everything will seem so simple if I can do that.

Christmas Letters 2013...Mission start.

I'm sorry.  Can I say that I'm sorry?

Turns out that not only do I have to add <p> tags to the template, but if my posts are too short, FB doesn't infer them as the description for open graph.  Not only that, but I can't set og:description myself because I don't know how to get at the post content from the html header.  Soooo as a hack, I'm just inserting lines at the bottom of my posts.  Yay. -_-

I fixed the tags on my blog, so FB should parse the posts correctly when reading from the twitterfeed links now...

This feeling is coming again...I can feel it.  No...go away.  Please...just go away.  Save me...will you save me?  You will, won't you?  I don't want to ask it of you, but please...save me from this feeling, will you?  It'll all be okay, right?  Right?

Do you hate people who complain all the time?  Or do you envy them?

I don't want to be an adult.  I definitely don't want to be an adult.  They're stupid, and irresponsible, and they suck.  I don't want to be an adult.

Change

I don't want to give up...

I don't want to give up...

Is it really time?

You people can just go on ahead.  I'll stay here and be alone by myself.  I'd rather just stay here.  Maybe, someday, you'll come back to me.  Maybe, someday, someone else will stay.

Don't ever change, my idol told me once.  To change, is to die, to disappear from the world.

Today seems like the perfect day.

Nothing else should matter...

I started to watch Gakuen Utopia Manabi Straight! again.  I was watching it a little bit yesterday and was totally in an emotional state so I was close to crying in points that I really normally would not have been.  I think I also empathized with a tsundere type for the first time...I really normally don't appreciate those types quite that much, but somehow, just thinking about it as basically a conflict between inner feelings of being included/putting yourself out there and running away, made it much more poignant.

Why am I so stupid?

I'm chained down beyond the point where I know.

I could be happier if I just learned to be worse.  Every unwritten blog post is another chain.

"Just stress out :)", that girl told me.

"The Legend of Zelda: A Link Between Worlds is a return to the classic, two dimensional, top down games that the series had moved away from, resurrected on the 3DS. The game is a sequel to the popular SNES title The Legend of Zelda: A Link to the Past, and sees a new Link take on the perils of Hyrule and explore the evil that lurks within the alternate dimension known as the Dark World."

Okay guys, it's time to get a 3DS.

IM technology has taken SEVERAL steps backwards in the past decade.  Ugh.  *throws up arms*  Back in my day, we had sensible contact lists, groupings, text formatting, reliable offline message delivery that WORKS (and informs you of when it's being used), all in a nice little desktop client that conveniently resided on the side of your screen.  Even ICQ was better than this nonsense.

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I know I've always said that technology has made it more difficult to connect with people, but I never meant it this literally.  Ugh!

Dances

Just a few.

A dance with Mirage, during I think the first class of Social 1 when I retook it as a follow.  It was then that I fully realized "oh man, switching roles in the middle of a dance is awesome!".

Many dances with Gerentt, including one tango in social 1 before we even knew each other, but one sticks out in my mind.  It was back before, when we used to dance more often, and talk about dance more often as well.  All I remember is that it was one waltz, at the very end of FNW--I think Richard Powers was DJ'ing--and we were amazing, it was such a rush, holy crap, we were awesome.

A lindy with Rachel that I think involved an incident with laughing too hard, and saliva, and more laughing.

The dance at the end of Big Dance, when I first truly met Acata.  Simply by chance that we found each other for the last dance.  It was like one of those dances when two skilled dancers dance with each other for the first time...but filled with so much more emotion.

Dancing Lullaby of Flame with Emily, probably the best I have ever danced to my own music.  Doing lead-goes-under, switching hands, right-to-right outside turn, swinging her with cross hands into a free spin and catching her by LEAPING into redowa at the phrase boundary was amazing.

Many waltzes to Breakaway, one of my favorite waltzes ever if not the most awesome waltz song in existence.

Dancing salsa with JJ--salsa??--to prove to ourselves that we could, because we were too damn shy toward each other.

Performing in the cross-step waltz competition at Viennese Ball, where I was "not supposed to be", I had thought.

Several accelerating waltzes with Danya, where we would conspire and coordinate to take off each others' hairties at the same time in front of Richard.  I remember making Tracey crack up one time as we were waving our hair together like that.

Almost every dance to "When Can We Do This Again", (except for the first time when I hadn't seen Wreck It Ralph yet).  One or two of them ended with me crying out of happiness afterwards as I fully realized how beautiful life is and how happy I should be if only I would look around me and let myself smile.

Redowas with Alex and Jane where the only thing that limited our speed was the other couples on the dance floor...including one where someone literally shouted "Crazy kids!" as we flew by.

Dancing with my mom for the first time at Friday Night Waltz.

Dawn Mazurka Quadrilles at Big Dance, where I went and -booked- it when the guys "let the ladies loose", leaping all the way across the entire room as Gerentt/Bob stood there going ".....oh crap"

Dancing with Rachel in her Viennese Ball dress, omg.  Yes, the super pretty one with the white bow, the white bow!~

A dance with Belinda, where it felt as if we were dancing not with each other, not with the music, but to something else entirely...

A cross-step with Yii Wen, the first time I ever fanned my partner while waltzing with them, using one hand for each.

The first time I tried to do the cross-step waltz mixer without a single variation repeat.

The time when I realized that reverse rotary waltz is the same thing as role-reversed mirror waltz...and that backleading regular rotary waltz is the same thing as reverse mirror waltz!  whoa!

Dancing with Lewis to the remix of Shadow's theme from the FF6 remix album, wow that was awesome.

Performing my Gangnam Style remix, the one that I had never really practiced except in my head where I choreographed doing pac-man arms, tetris pieces falling, the "pause" pose, the macarena, and damn I NAILED the orbital at the dubstep scream when I was glowstringing.

Dancing with everyone to my Erin Shore remix for the first time at Jammix.  Really proud of that moment.

Thank you.

I don't know who I'm writing to anymore.

I'm listening to The Black Box again.  I just want to run into it, like a security blanket.  I don't even "know" that the album will do something to me to help me or anything.  I just know that in the past, I turned to it when I had nowhere else to turn to, so maybe, knowing that, I'll be able to take some comfort in it.

It feels a bit scary again.  I managed to hide it from myself well enough, and was fine, but suddenly everything came crashing down and I realized just how far up I am here.  I know I won't fall or anything, but it's still so scary to not have my safe ground.  Can't really focus on anything or anything.

Don't want to think about it.  Don't want to think about so many things, just want to blot them all out, throw them away, shut them in the closet.  Ahh, I want to just throw it all away, walk outside into a cool, cloudy day, spread my arms, smile, skip around...skipping?  No, I won't skip; I'd just walk peacefully.  I want to hear from my two angels.  Want to hang out on campus.  Want to ditch work.  Want to dance.  I wonder if I should just go to dancebreak?  Or even WCS?  Ahh, but I don't think I have the strength to dance right now.  What -do- I want to do?  Draw?  Play a game?  Maybe I'm just pushing my body too hard, that too.  I don't actually even know that, because I don't know what "too hard" is anymore, only what is "supposed to be".  Ahh, maybe I should just write to that little girl; it always helps me, doesn't it?  It would be nice, to talk with my fellow ISFJ too.

Want to hurry up and meet Aivi and Surasshu.  Really...I want to give them their present now!  I really do...can't the time pass a little faster so that time can be here faster?  Can't it?  What shall I do in the meantime, do you think?  Let's...think of all the fun things in life, can't we?  Yeah...there's a bunch of fun things, aren't there?  Let's just worry about all of those, and not worry about anything else.  Come on now, don't make things hard on yourself; you always do.  Ahh, I'm sounding crazy now.  What happened to my blogging style?

I don't want to hide my sorrows.

I took my mom to Richard's class today.  It was so fun!  Dancing is...really fun, isn't it?  Both leading and following...they're both so much fun.  How could I ever choose just one of them?  When I'm dancing, being exuberant, and putting confidence in my own style...that is happiness.  I wish that I could just dance like that more often.  Ahh, but, I guess, it's necessary that sometimes I'll just dance like I'm more depressed.  I guess there isn't any escaping that.  I wish I could be happy, but, sometimes, I just need to be sad.  And I guess, I'm really bad at being happy, unless the sadness is pushed out.  That's why it makes sense that B talked about sadness as squeezing, like squeezing a sponge.  It has to be squeezed out sometimes.

I can only truly write about my own thoughts and feelings.  Not just in words, but in music too.  How else would I be able to express things, if the feelings aren't even mine in the first place?  I'm sure that it's probably the same for drawing, too.  Everyone is so good at drawing, really.  I only just started.  Really there's nothing that I've done that I should be impressed with, but I think, just because of the way I am, it's necessary for me to be proud of it, otherwise I'd get too discouraged.  Heh, just...it makes it easier if there are little victories along the way, too.

When I first started writing music, it was like that too.  Well, maybe a bit easier, since I've been working with music all the time, so melodies and rhythm and everything came easily to me; it was really just the arrangement, synthesis, production that I didn't know.  But I was happy with all of those first songs I made, back in 2004.  You know, it wasn't until 3 years later, in 2007, that I made what I'd probably call my first song that was "quite good".  And it took years after that before I found the style that I have today (still changing, always).

Of course, the issue with music and drawing that makes them so much harder to learn than, how to dance, is that we haven't been watching people do social dance all our lives; but we've been looking at images, pictures, nature, and listening to music for a long long time; we know what is "good" and it becomes readily apparent that the primitive stabs and dittys that we make are...not.

I really have been so hesitant to write about this and have you read it, but I've been thinking about all the posters that are up in my room right now.  You know, the posters, the laminated posters, the wall scrolls, the pencil boards, all the decorations.  I don't know if you know, but these things will routinely fall down off of my wall.  Sometimes because I didn't affix them with enough sticky-tak or whatever; sometimes because of the changing weather; sometimes just because they decided to be stubborn.  Whatever it is, it's just a fact of life that I have to put these things back up on a regular basis.  It's just what I got used to; it was this was back in my sanctuary at Munger too.

And it makes me really wary now, because every time I can't help but relate it to my friendships.  How I have so many that I refuse to let go of, and I'm expending this effort to do that, but...in the end, it's not even about the posters themselves; I just need to keep them up because I don't want any of them to fall down.  There'd be an empty spot in the wall, after all.

I'm getting less disciplined nowadays.  Sometimes I leave them on the floor.  I think that's a separate issue, really; one that I'm struggling with recently.  I seem to have a real lack of discipline, almost uncharacteristically so.  Bah.  But in any case, I can't help but relate all of it to all of these things that I've been thinking, about my so-called "friendships", and...and then I think about the Christmas letters that I'm just afraid to start, because I don't even know what to do about them anymore.  I've thought about taking the posters down, you know...but I don't even know what to think about it.  I don't even know anymore whether I want them up or down.  Heh...isn't that sad?  I actually don't know.  It's too many thoughts being confused together in a giant mishmash.  I can't escape my overriding nature, that I don't want to change, don't want to change, need to keep things as they always are.  But is that really right?  But then again, why would I want to take the posters down?  Aren't these things that I like?  When I think, "I should make my walls cleaner", where is that "should" coming from?  It's not me, is it?  Isn't that not quite right?  I can't tell if it's just because I'm thinking about what my idol would think.  And it almost feels like I'm letting other people down.  What would they think?  To hear that Timmie's room isn't filled with the things that it normally is?  That doesn't seem like Timmie, does it?

I don't think I'll write as many Christmas letters this year.  I feel so sorry for that.  I know that I don't have to apologize, because no one is expecting an apology; it's not really -them- I'm apologizing to.  I'm only apologizing because in my mind I already had a commitment to myself, that friendships mean a certain thing to me.  And I feel like if I lose that, I'm losing a part of myself.

I already lost parts of myself, though.  It's not quite so bad.  Ahh, I hate it though.  I really hate it.

I don't know if I actually fully believe what I'm saying right now or if I'm just saying it to be all hipster, but the problem I have with the whole "omg everyone is being sucked into social media" is not that people are staring at their phones all day.  No, that's not what really gets me.  What gets me is that everyone is staring into their phones and not really DOING anything.  That's really what I hate, especially when I catch it happening to myself.  You see, the whole "hey go away world, I'm going to lose myself in an electronic device" thing has been happening wayyy before all of this silly social media stuff and all that.  Heck yeah, I'd escape from that boring car ride, or that plane flight, or heck, even that dinner where there's no real reason for me to be there.  I'd escape into Mega Man Battle Network 2, or Trauma Center: Under the Knife, or Link's Awakening, or -whatever-.  And that's great, because sometimes, I just don't want to be here in the real world.  I just want to play my game and accomplish something.

The problem now is that it's turned into not really -doing- anything.  The problem isn't being engrossed in our electronic toys...it's that somehow, it feels like we're NOT engrossed in them.  If you're idly flipping through facebook, or checking your mail, seeing who's online...it's like flipping through the TV channels, without any purpose, just because you happen to be sitting at the couch and couldn't think of anything better to do with your time and you're too lazy to get off your butt and do anything, even -sleep-.  In my world, email shouldn't be something that you "check".  It's something that comes at me like a phone call, and I deal with it.  When you "check your mail" for the umpteenth time in a row, it's not because you think there's going to be any mail there, but because you just couldn't think of anything better to do.

Part of it I think is the fact that I'm growing up now and have all of these other things I want to do.  I can't keep up anymore.  I've lost that battle, unfortunately.  Damn.

It's not -always- terrible, though.  You know, when I'm bored and I look at my iPod now, I actually spend that time reading through cooking recipes, because I'm trying to learn more and become better at it.

But yes, the point isn't that we're too absorbed in our phones...because we're not even doing that.

Observing the way that other people consume social media is really fascinating.

What is..."family"?

Sometime near the beginning of this week, I had a dream...it was set in high school again, and band again.  I don't think I was actually back in high school, just happened to be there, doing something, I don't know what business it was that I was among them.  But I saw a girl I knew...one of the good kids.  One of the quintessential "good kids", even.  And I called out her name, and we had a hug.  It had been so long since I had seen her; so long.

After I had that dream, I wanted to write that girl a letter.  I really did...I thought I was going to, actually, though of course I only have her address from two years ago.  Apparently the last time I wrote to her was in June of 2011.

What was I going to write to her?  Not that much...just that I had that dream, and that I thought that it meant I should write to her, and let her know that I thought she was a cool person.

Lately I've been having doubts.  Two years is a lot, isn't it?  And it's been even longer than that, since I actually saw her.  Do I really even know this person?  What would be the effect of my letter?  I talked to my idol about this, and really, I'm writing to the memory of that girl, not her herself.  Is that right?  Is that actually fair to the real, living her, of the present, that I'm using her as a substitute for who she was in the past?  Isn't that a bit fake, that I'm playing pretend, so that I can feel as if I can connect with something that in reality, isn't there anymore?

At the same time, I do feel that it's nice...to receive something from an old friend, isn't it?  People appreciate what I do, right?  Is that a good enough reason to keep doing it?  I don't know, actually, to be honest.  But I like my friendships to be commitments.  I guess it's a foolish way of thinking, but I guess part of me just wants to lead by example.  It's too sad to have friendships end like this, isn't it?

I once had a friend, who I ended up not liking very much, and they kept intruding onto my life after I realized it.  That really made me think about things...this person is trying to be in my life, but...I don't want them there.  What if I'm like that too?  That I'm being stubborn and trying to hold on to my connections with people, but...what if I'm just causing them trouble, in the end?  That really shook me, when I first thought about it.

It makes me cry, sometimes, when I realize how powerless I am against this.  Sometimes I'm really afraid...does it make a difference, the things that I'm doing?  And is it even right?  It makes me cry, because this is something that's so important to me.  All I'm doing is delaying the inevitable.  It was much easier before, when I could just believe that I really =could= change things, that I really had that power.  But I don't think I do.  I'm human too, after all, and vulnerable to change.

It's already time to start writing Christmas letters, but it just makes me really sad.  Thinking about it is really scary to face up to the truth.  Living in a fantasy world, with imaginary friends.  Is it really better for me to do that?  Aren't there other people who are running around and spending time together with real people?  That makes me a bit jealous, I think.  Thinking about all of it, makes me realize that I don't have friends like that anymore.  It got harder, huh?  It's really my own fault though; no one else to blame, I don't think.  Well, no, not all my own fault.  But I can certainly try harder, can't I...?

Maybe I would have more friends

if I didn't focus so much on the ones that don't exist anymore

Friday Night Waltz has made me complacent.  Being friends with my idol has made me complacent too.  Seeing people at dance every week...it's fun...but is that really how I want to spend time with my friends?

Still, always, need to try harder, need to try my best.  I need to...right?

It's about time to start on my letters for this year, but...I don't know.

What does it mean, to be "friends"?

Okay, this is something to learn from.  I want my Sanrio collectino to be organized so neatly like this!

Also omg so cute: http://sanrioaddict.junolyn.com/2010/03/little-twin-stars-rocks-on.html

Let's see some other examples.

Also side note, OMG

also ahhh

Anyways.

I'm thinking about moving out of my current place...if/whenever that does happen, wherever my new place is, I'll really think about how I want to organize everything.  Right now is "okay", but looking at this, it really could be neater.

I think the thing is that I have so much stuff that's just posters and such, and it actually makes it seem a little less organized since the walls are all so cluttered.  I know that that's just a natural characteristic of my room walls, but I don't know if it -has- to be like that.  I don't care much for a some of the posters I have anyways, like the random old Naruto ones.  Maybe I can just pick a few of the good ones, like the Brave ones that I have.  And I can probably just take all the pencil boards off of the walls.  And I need more shelf space for my plushies!  Also all the face towels and hand towels that are on the walls...those really don't need to be there; I can find a better way to organize them, I'm sure.

Oh, TGM stick, I missed you...how I missed you...it feels nice to be playing again.

I don't remember when it was; I was out somewhere, with my friend.  I heard an parent telling their child, "Good job!"

I felt like I needed to cry.

I wish I could be Me

I wish I could be Me again,

the Me of way back when

I'd open the box of video games

wondering, "Which should I play?"

I wish I could go back

into that golden age

I wish I could be that Me

who knew how to have fun.

I wish I could be Me again,

the Me of so long ago

The one who had all those friends,

now, gone.

Oh, how I wish I could still see them,

and tell them, Hello

If I could go back,

I'd never let them go.

I wish, oh I wish, I could be Myself again,

out on the marching field

Taking care of my section, those good kids

I had something I believed in...something I fought for,

and everyone knew it, too.

I still remember that fateful night,

"Seniors, never forget."  That's right.

I wish, I could have another chance, another year

I'd do it all again, if only I could.

I wish, I could be Me again,

so peaceful, so quiet

My studio, a sanctuary

my life, bliss.

I wish I could live there again,

and sit on my bed

I knew who I was,

and, who I wasn't.

I wish, oh I wish, I could be Me again,

believing in myself without any doubt

I was sad, often, but I didn't mind

Everything was alright, everything was fine.

When did I lose it?  Where did it go?

How can I be Myself again?

...I don't know...

Haters gonna hate.  Hater-haters gonna hate haters =(

How can I expect to be nice to others when I can't even be nice to my own family?

Sometimes it really takes strength to do the right thing, even if it's simple or easy.  But it's important to try your best anyways.  My idol taught me that.

I wish it would rain....I wish it would rain and rain and rain...cloudy skies, indoors, cozy, in my room at munger, that atmosphere.

Missing you...

I had a dream where I was watching the band kids perform somewhere.  Apparently their field show was...a parody of a band rehearsal.  That was interesting, and sort of funny, though I'm sure it would have been really controversial, and probably not fitting the guidelines, and would rank really low, etc etc.  They did the whole drumline (movie) thing at some point, and I remember at the end of that sequence some guy unrolled a huge pack of sticks and just scattered them all over.  haha.

Life is scary...so, so, so scary.  I never realized it before, but I realize it now.  I'm not sure whether I should be trying to push all of the fear out of my mind and distract myself from it, or whether I should be convincing myself that it's not actually that scary, or just accepting it and focusing on all of the wonderful things instead.  But I'm so scared, so scared, I'm still really, really, really scared.

I am an artist, because I have a need to create things.  Music, games, levels, Magic sets, blog posts, glowsticking videos, dance variations, =whatever=.

But I'm an engineer because I start from my restrictions, not from my goals, when I create.  I don't think about what I want to create first--I start from what I -can- create.

...okay, that's what I -wanted- to say, but I don't know if the "engineer" part is true.  I think it probably has more to do with being an ISFJ-type and valuing pragmatism and things that are concrete and practical, as well as having a really strong tendency towards sticking with the things that I already know.

As I'm designing my MtG set, I'm definitely seeing restriction as something that's super-useful when trying to be creative.  Limiting your options means limiting the design space that you're working in, and that makes things easier.  That's why the color pie is your best friend when designing a set.  Red has to have direct damage spells.  Green can't have fliers.  Black gets instant-speed removal.  If you already know all this, now all you have to do is figure out what you want your red direct damage to actually look like (can it fulfill one of the themes of your set?).

Summer of 2013

You know, I used to do "quarter in review" posts, for the passing of each academic quarter and season.  I'd link you to the last one I did, which I think recapped my entire Stanford experience as well, but...well, Xanga is doing its whole Xanga 2.0 thing, so...that doesn't really exist anymore.

The thing is, I don't think I could really recap this summer (or even this year), even if I wanted to.  How can I?  So much happened, and I was overwhelmed at so many points.  Maybe I still am.  And I can't even talk about most of it, can I?

It's been tough.  Really tough, actually.  Life after college has been such a stark contrast to my 5th year, the glory year when everything was in its place.  But then again, I guess I may have said the same thing 5 years ago, when I was transitioning from high school to Stanford--I was lamenting the loss of my friends, lamenting the loss of fun classtime, ...it took a few years, didn't it?

I want to say things are both better and worse than they were during those first couple years at Stanford.  They're worse in that I've been through worse times lately.  Granted, I went through some pretty stupidly bad times during, say, my sophomore year, but I don't think it was bad in -this- way.  It's not even a magnitude thing...I just don't like the "means" in which I've suffered through the past year.  It's a different kind of sensation.  At the same time, it's mixed in with really awesome times and lots of positive things, which there were not as much of 5 or 6 years ago.  So...

I've been working on my custom MtG set.  A lot.  I playtested a bunch of the cards on Friday, with a friend, and did some massive redesign work since that time.  It's actually super-exciting to see the cards that I designed actually functioning.

Fall is here, it seems.  The summer weather is fading, fading away.  I don't know whether to be sad, or to feel refreshed...no, that's not true.  It's definitely refreshing.  I really like cloudy weather, don't you know?

My self-confidence seems to be...rather shot these days.  I think...I think, I need to be working on it.  At the same time, I'm more outgoing...I'm having conversations with people that never would have happened before...they really never would have.  It's really scary and intimidating, but I guess I proved to myself that I can do it too, if I try.  Yeah...

It really bothers me, that I can't blog like I used to.  It =really= bothers me...it just tells me that something is not right; it's not right.  What happened to all the thoughts and focus that I used to have?  It's really bothering, that I can't just stream out my thoughts like I used to.  I think this is a self-confidence thing too.  Maybe I just keep on stopping myself.  But I don't need to, do it?  It feels nice...it feels nice to be able to type-think, to let my fingers do the thinking and not my mind.  To just type =whatever= comes into my mind.

I talk like that sometimes too, when I'm in the right situation.  Just saying whatever.  It's nice...it's really nice.  Everyone likes talking about themselves and venting their problems, don't they?  I think there was a lot of negativity in my previous writing, but...I think it's okay, as long as it's not too much.  It's just...I need to be able to release my thoughts.  I want to feel -peaceful- with everything.  That's really what's important.  There's too much tension, way way way too much pressure.  It really needs to go away, this pressure.  I just need peace.

New chapter of life starts today ^^;

Woke up early today, for the first time in...gosh, forever.  The weather is so nice...can it just stay like this the whole day?  Will it???  Ahh, it's too much to hope, maybe.  But the clouds are so nice...almost like it's winter again.  Hey, I'm allowed to talk about the weather on this blog, right?  I can say whatever I want, right?

Looks like project Love Everlasting will be revealed in =November=, so we're going to have to wait another 2.5 months or so.  Sorry, Rachel!  It'll be worth the wait though, I'm sure.  Ahh, I'm really so excited for it...

Been trying my hand at designing my own MtG set, Return to Return to Ravnica, ha ha ha.  We'll see how that goes.

Might be going to Bad Boys of Swing tonight?  It's not too far, so I feel like I might as well go, assuming I'm not tired and feeling up for it.  My WCS is "okay", so it's, okay.

Seems like I regained my stride at work, which is really nice...

Ludum Dare is coming up this weekend.  Trying to keep it a low-stress deal this time, and make a smaller project.  I know I say that every time, but maybe this time will actually be the time when I -do- make a smaller project.  -_-;

https://xanga.crowdhoster.com/relaunch-xanga

Apparently Xanga was successful in its fundraiser.  Cool!  Will we stay here anyways?  Probably...but it's at least nice that all of my old posts are still alive in their original form.

We'll see how this new home does for me.  We'll see.

Not sure what to write in here anymore, seriously.  I really don't know.

Well, anyways.

On Friday I went to visit the band kids at my high school...I couldn't go on Saturday since I was hosting my dance.  Everything was completely foreign...not just the kids there, but the staff as well, the field, the track, the fences...everything.  I walked around and made sure to stay out of everything, made sure I didn't make the same mistake that I did before of wanting to poke my hands into it.  It's not mine anymore; I have no business with it.

I went into the band room, just kind of poking my head around.  I was looking at the award plaques...even those are new.  The Edith Cegelski one...the one that was up there only had 2 names on it.  I don't know what happened to the old one--the one with my name on it.

Probably the only thing that I really recognized there was "Beach Is to Fun".  It felt pretty nice, seeing my book still there.  Heh.

It was kind of sad, just going there and not having any connection to anything at all.  This was such a big part of my life, you know?  It was one of my only real passions at the time.  The only person who I knew there was K, and...I didn't really want to talk with him.  He saw me in the band room, actually, and just said "Hello."  ...which meant that he didn't recognize me.  Which is alright...I look different now, and I again, I really didn't want to talk to him.  But I smiled to myself inside a little bit, knowing that he just walked past his former head drum major without even realizing it.

Saturday was the dance I hosted.  The setlist is posted here.  It went pretty well.  We probably had about 20 people or so show up?  So it was more or less like last time.  I'm not popular enough to get everyone to come to my events, which is okay.  I think it's just because of the kind of person I am.  I'm not, don't know, can't socialize with people.  It's okay.

The people who came seemed to really like it, so...again, more or less like last time.  So that went really well.

Project Love Everlasting: I'm on the finishing touches.  This is going to be so awesome!!!

Sooooo yeah, wrote music for 7 hours last night.  Felt great, was so fun, really really fun!  Really excited for this, really.  Man...really excited.

So easily influenced by others, even unknowingly.  Is this right?  Am I right?  Who cares who cares who cares I'm right, aren't I?  If I say so, then it must be, right?  Of course there are going to be times when no, I'm totally wrong and gee, how much of a jerk can I -be- with doing all of the things that I thought were "right", but...it's okay, huh.

Project Love Everlasting is nearing its final stages!

You won't know where the line is until you cross it...?  Or at least, come close to it.  Best way to find the edge is to brush up against it.

It's funny...I feel like it's something I do so often and so second-naturedly in video games...I've complained before that learning how to drive is made really difficult by the fact that the penalty for screwing up is so high, so you're too afraid.  You overcompensate in one direction, so you can't just nail things in the middle.  Or something.  Well, I guess the real reason that driving is hard is because you don't have an overhead camera.  But I digress...

Xanga recap

Just for posterity, recording the final stats for my Xanga, which has lasted all the way from September 5, 2004 until June 11, 2013.

3759 posts across 3202 days, which is an average of ~1.17 posts per day.

Here are all the semi-interesting posts that I've collected throughout all of the years, along with their post titles or descriptions.  These links will probably become defunct soon, sadly.

http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/133638165/item.html Starcraft bogus rants
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/137154142/item.html ultraminiantidismembermentationisminglationifyingology
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/141993988/item.html Speech & Debate = Tetris Attack
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/155976945/item.html Random Question Experiment
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/181126486/item.html Random Question Experiment #2
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/200948430/item.html Kristina is confused
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/204403230/item.html I used to be so busy!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/219234209/item.html Chris is weird
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/247220697/item.html LEM Brainstorming
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/253504665/item.html Even back then...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/254736421/item.html Stupidity
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/262822830/item.html "Timmy Wong, how dare you sit in chairs?"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/283939008/item.html 5x5x5
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/292475203/item.html Liz digging herself into a hole
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/293921138/item.html AIM log results
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/295398230/item.html AIM log analysis
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/295968141/item.html Barriers
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/298727113/item.html *leaves at a more than moderate pace, very much faster than walking*
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/299134638/item.html Quotes from my Foothill math teacher
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/300241324/item.html Mass Internet Quizzes
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/304931497/item.html sin x / n
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/328627515/item.html Silly Parents...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/332213018/item.html Cubes.  Lots of em.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/332674568/item.html Long away messages
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/334048192/item.html Use a layer!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/337505831/item.html "Now there's a mental image, eh?"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/340722635/item.html Pretzels
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/343560651/item.html Chris is still weird
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/352738205/item.html Chem Lab #1
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/361822832/item.html Chem Lab #2
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/365536705/item.html "Protected call"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/365753981/item.html "Cheeseburger without rice"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/370321009/item.html Chem Lab #3
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/370966088/item.html Chem Lab #4
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/371403349/item.html The beginning of my trichophilia
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/374163514/item.html Toogle and Woogle
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/374784772/item.html Crazy Hair Day
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/374809956/item.html Cleaning solution
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/376052048/item.html Failures
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/376464008/item.html Contrast
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/376578676/item.html "Instant blog post generator"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/380847235/item.html "Go suck your face!"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/381105285/item.html "It's hard to be yourself..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/383769469/item.html "The hole -always- dresses the form."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/388936961/item.html Self-Centered
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/397862459/item.html That's Fremont for ya
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/397917679/item.html RUINED MY LIFE
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/402357944/item.html Practicing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/406922213/item.html Yes!!!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/407534414/item.html Robitissun Drum Major!?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/412535636/item.html News flash
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/413189696/item.html 2005 - a recap
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/431464523/item.html The Sleep War (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/433713002/item.html Joseph Kelly and the Grand Unified Theory of All Techno
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/436971640/item.html itch
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/442807247/item.html sightreading
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/453757638/item.html be meticulous now...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/455495439/item.html bad timing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/458709002/item.html some philosophy
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/460119406/item.html Celebrity Jeopardy
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/462425171/item.html TODO: for Sophia
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/471610020/item.html Practicing (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/474484545/item.html "I hate you guys..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/474713074/item.html Happy birthday to me
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/476862984/item.html Very cranky
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/478793869/item.html We could do it...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/486914164/item.html What does Kristina know?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/488399228/item.html Super-secret Third Way
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/488702467/item.html High G
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/491934108/item.html 173
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/494480124/item.html Band Shows
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/496667672/item.html ikkitikkilikki
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/499019522/item.html Even in my -dreams-!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/499899447/item.html 173rd day of the year
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/502149572/item.html Belinda's Entries and The Wrath of Love Sauce
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/504288158/item.html Jack of All Trades
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/504790297/item.html Yay Drawing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/510213520/item.html Shortest Comment Ever
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/510843996/item.html Comparing Rubik's Cubes (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/510924292/item.html Comparing Rubik's Cubes (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/511975841/item.html Practicing (3)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/512218597/item.html Etude in Fb Harmonic Diminished Major (Etude Impossibiliatoriagiarratoment)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/512343673/item.html Post-It Challenge (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/513773590/item.html Post-It Challenge (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/514408303/item.html If coffee makes me tired...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/514858194/item.html crap.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/515230814/item.html Being Cool.  And Bugler's Holiday WTF.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/518657639/item.html Song Lyrics
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/518975221/item.html No sleep because of band
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/519322657/item.html Kathleen's hair
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/525489053/item.html Definition
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/526846123/item.html Band being less personal, learning, and emotions
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/527092974/item.html Rule of thumb
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/528276926/item.html Superb logic
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/528319087/item.html "It was such a good idea!!!"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/533436660/item.html "Now Mr. Kelly's down TWO soloists!!!"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/533478469/item.html Parade DM Curse
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/537832748/item.html Pretending to Be a Bot
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/538146330/item.html I am the Man...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/538638990/item.html NOOO!!!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/539280904/item.html Shedding
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/540654159/item.html Fog
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/541349965/item.html Petered Out
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/542796193/item.html "Oh, Timm[ie]..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/548306998/item.html Last Night Rehearsal Ever
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/549202281/item.html Championships Highlights
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/550938262/item.html Happiness/Unhappiness
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/555046770/item.html Friends
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/555058792/item.html Good/Bad
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/556122828/item.html Admitted!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/557382606/item.html X-Mas Cards 2006
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/558703163/item.html Santa's Present
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/560134545/item.html Start of Glowsticking
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/560556755/item.html Misanthrope
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/560849202/item.html The Good, the Bad, and the Horrible
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/561072358/item.html Last Words
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/561279852/item.html "Suck dirt"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/562559154/item.html Being Complex/Emulating Personalities
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/563310792/item.html DM Interview Questions
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/563496493/item.html "Thank the Lord..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/564561644/item.html Attitude Problem
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/565004651/item.html Stanford Application Essay
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/565013057/item.html Kenneth is Special
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/565467592/item.html Close Friends
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/565469694/item.html Ikkitikkilikki
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/565695817/item.html Trichophilia
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/567323768/item.html The B
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/567331174/item.html Letters
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/568325801/item.html Driving Forces in My Life
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/568693022/item.html Letter Delivery
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/569637936/item.html Crazy Texans...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/569707636/item.html Thank You Stephanie
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/569885523/item.html Whoops.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/569957990/item.html A New Interpretation of "Suck dirt"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/570494047/item.html Junior Year Timm[ie] is Back!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/570750184/item.html Pretty Hair Girl
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/571023944/item.html Being Different
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/574225150/item.html WP, and Competitions
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/575085990/item.html Rolling In
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/576081519/item.html Intelligence vs. Adaptation, Impulsiveness vs. Long-term Planning, Affection
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/576433159/item.html Winter
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/576434946/item.html "One Girl in All the World"/"All the World in One Girl"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/578318130/item.html Pretty Hair Girl (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/578562093/item.html Stream of Consciousness
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/579249478/item.html Paying Respects
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/580185616/item.html The Question
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/580873869/item.html I Hate Competitions
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/581032629/item.html Stanford Long Essay
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/581803873/item.html Feynman Quote
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/582016429/item.html bleh
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/582587246/item.html Davis
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/582892573/item.html Teachers, Stupidity, and Life Sucking
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/583529861/item.html Senior Portraits
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/585604604/item.html Admit Weekend
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/587030841/item.html A Dream
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/587599383/item.html Oops.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/587601183/item.html My Music Folder
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/587913135/item.html She Knows
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/588116644/item.html Inspired
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/588530494/item.html Pizzown'd
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/590825590/item.html AP Bio Test
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/591753179/item.html DJing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/591912827/item.html Fake/Being on Top of the World
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/591947679/item.html MOAR LINGS
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/592575044/item.html You Know You've Had a Good Practice Session When...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/592814807/item.html Limbo
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/593246024/item.html Econ Ductmation
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/595574037/item.html Date
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/596680301/item.html What Would Parisha Do?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/596900687/item.html End of an Era
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/597397203/item.html Being Timm[ie]
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/597417326/item.html Sunrise
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/597601789/item.html Loved
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/597965633/item.html Ouch.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/598676986/item.html Immature
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/599369194/item.html June 22nd
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/599582124/item.html Adults
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/599640375/item.html Thank You
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/599780087/item.html Nice Guy
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/600206449/item.html My Mom Doesn't Sleep
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/600497447/item.html 40k in Tetris Attack
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/601144141/item.html Forgotten Appointments
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/601358199/item.html Time, Friends, and the World
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/601717771/item.html "wow, that's a lot of sex"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/601981039/item.html Thank you Resa.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/602357879/item.html pwn't
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/603030114/item.html Ordering the List
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/603233319/item.html My Mom
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/603234038/item.html Such Talented Artists
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/603656855/item.html This Happens Every Time
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/604425635/item.html AIM phail
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/604652521/item.html Letters, and Erasing Yourself
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/605643542/item.html Doubleshot (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/605653317/item.html Doubleshot (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/605044694/item.html Effects Processing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/606406910/item.html Foothill/De Anza Classes
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/606632751/item.html "im going to shoot them"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/606821450/item.html Friends
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/607370888/item.html Elizabeth's quote
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/607603257/item.html "Back to the band room..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/607966097/item.html Haven't Beaten this Since
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/608135041/item.html "Life is a rush"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/609196519/item.html Hypocrisy
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/610589305/item.html To Do?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/610628290/item.html Not Gonna Miss This
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/610903415/item.html Naturally Nocturnal
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/611663877/item.html "The Wondering Box"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/612634865/item.html Writing About Yourself
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/612963116/item.html The Sleep War (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/612983767/item.html Vista Tip (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/613358766/item.html Sleep Paralysis
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/616042681/item.html Harry Potter
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/617717264/item.html Another Moment
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/619754459/item.html "Writing Timm[ie]", Yahtzee Time
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/619930800/item.html Textual Vent (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/620940367/item.html Where's the Passion?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/621129744/item.html Asian (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/622675474/item.html Change
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/623702627/item.html Pet Peeve
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/623753621/item.html Kennethhh
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/625181923/item.html Negative Time Solve
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/625667206/item.html Letting Yourself Be Hurt
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/625835853/item.html Textual Vent (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/626633368/item.html Textual Vent (3)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/626912320/item.html Effects vs. Causes
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/626967295/item.html What If...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/627435945/item.html Damn, I'm Good...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/628208399/item.html Vista Tip (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/629121298/item.html Chris Chang
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/631462282/item.html The Uses of JNetCube...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/632127487/item.html Men (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/633689020/item.html The Sleep War (3)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/633924173/item.html Tension
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/634002628/item.html Lesson Learned
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/635348880/item.html (Audio) Compressors are Silly
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/636753079/item.html Someday
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/637580168/item.html Animorph
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/637762740/item.html Be Careful What You Wish For...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/637898680/item.html Thank You Joanna's pf
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/638960140/item.html Making Stuff
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/639075291/item.html Sadness
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/639718915/item.html iTunes (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/639990595/item.html iTunes (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/640160191/item.html (He's wrong, and this proves it)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/640326871/item.html Finally I Remember--This Was Mr. Nguyen from Chem Honors
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/640518478/item.html No Right Answer
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/640642907/item.html Rain (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/640963524/item.html Relationships
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/641423807/item.html Rain (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/641646160/item.html Acronym
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/641809096/item.html "Gung Hay Fat Choy", Connections
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642310386/item.html IWBTG (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642448289/item.html Talking
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642495282/item.html Cleared TTFAF
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642738179/item.html Think You Can Do Better?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642918040/item.html IWBTG (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/642927348/item.html Timm[ie] Vista
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/643608653/item.html Cherry Blossom
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/643915137/item.html Me
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644025747/item.html Arguing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644028072/item.html iTunes (3)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644203460/item.html iTunes (4)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644213552/item.html iTunes (5)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644557163/item.html Raining Cats and Dogs
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/644993057/item.html Stupid People
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/645658616/item.html Friend Request
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/645659510/item.html "Simply the Best"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/645662266/item.html Speaking Your Mind
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/645847446/item.html Ctrl+S
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/645972341/item.html DFTT
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646247955/item.html Compliments
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646288181/item.html Horse + Water
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646443635/item.html Asian (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646585131/item.html MUSAK
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646937039/item.html "Brawlnighter"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646956177/item.html TIRES DON EXITS
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/646957703/item.html Pro Tip
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/647311014/item.html Why Do People Care So Much?
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/647490077/item.html Fushi =(
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/647581302/item.html The Little Things
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/648094914/item.html Falcon PAWWWNNNCH
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/648274407/item.html "Melancholy"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/648295296/item.html Sanrio Tagline
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/649563313/item.html Primal Instinct
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/650123353/item.html Fighting Games and Adaptation
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/650607236/item.html It's Not Nice (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/650743041/item.html It's Not Nice (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/650950452/item.html Fictional Universes
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/651094972/item.html Talents
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/651574141/item.html "Everybody wants to be a master"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/651702676/item.html Cell Phones
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/653036768/item.html Star Control II (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/653038125/item.html Star Control II (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/653074994/item.html Sequence Break
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/653386703/item.html Treat Your DM Right
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/653604539/item.html Super Metroid TAS RBO
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/654162773/item.html DMs
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/654374782/item.html Styles
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/654522214/item.html "I'm not putting my lips on that."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/654555694/item.html Surreal
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/654559655/item.html Metroid Games
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/655309493/item.html THWAP THWAP THWAP
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/656514067/item.html Super Star
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/656989320/item.html Summer Nights
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/657604592/item.html Ur-Quan
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/658806167/item.html I get that a lot.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/659141849/item.html Vista Tip (3)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/659714495/item.html TGM (1)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/660042071/item.html Love
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/660093856/item.html Salmon Bot
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/661644417/item.html Educational
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/662683062/item.html Alias
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663079462/item.html Murphy's Law of Tetris
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663467311/item.html Hi Kenneth
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663479166/item.html You know you've been playing too much TGM when...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663617341/item.html Screen Name
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663754139/item.html Groupwork and Teachers
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/663781494/item.html 1% Rule
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/664068848/item.html And then it dawned on me.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/665110980/item.html Belinda Hu is cool
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/665664061/item.html Kickass
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666106952/item.html You'd Think...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666417063/item.html (Lie)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666814135/item.html Three Ways
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666917177/item.html I Love Timm[ie] Vista
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666920782/item.html Critique/Recc Letters
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/666950156/item.html Being DM
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/667929349/item.html Music Process/Noobs
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/668029454/item.html 1,771 posts
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/668052275/item.html Jake
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/668172148/item.html Gaming
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/668329692/item.html Awesome Face
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669259825/item.html also urmom
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669244679/item.html Game Criteria
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669419374/item.html Guiness Sucks
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669421876/item.html Mega Man 9
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669801070/item.html 1425 days
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669815968/item.html Olympics
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669930186/item.html Studies show...
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669933356/item.html Adventure Shell
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670052377/item.html WUT UP HOMIES
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670227520/item.html Band
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670337462/item.html Band Camp is poisonous
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670518784/item.html Catering to others
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670636733/item.html "Just think..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/670637364/item.html Alakaiser Rule
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671141976/item.html Good Grief.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671245997/item.html Billy Anderson #5: The One that Comes After Number Four
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671321339/item.html Braid, "Casual" and "Mainstream" Games, Guitar Hero, and Smart People
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671793774/item.html "!?"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671795318/item.html Name
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671912942/item.html Every Girl
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/671964540/item.html TGM Update
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/672435435/item.html Epic Letter
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/672904847/item.html SoCo
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/673035002/item.html Doing Things vs. Not Doing Things, Advice, and More DM Stuff
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/673413288/item.html The Salmonbot actually has a point here
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/673540684/item.html Trance
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/673796381/item.html Exploratorium
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/674441032/item.html "I Just Wasn't Made For These Times"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/674562222/item.html Inside Tetris Jokes
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/674583893/item.html Flute Spin
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/674707666/item.html Another DM Rant
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/674838686/item.html Speaking
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/675225141/item.html "Secret Cue", Sleepless in Bio AP
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/675776204/item.html Rationing Your Time
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/676535930/item.html Flies
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/677109151/item.html Lovefest
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/677471085/item.html "No its Timmy Wong"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/677486456/item.html CS vs EE
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/677956203/item.html Memories
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/677991856/item.html DM Instinct
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/678015759/item.html Boys are stupid
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/678251811/item.html Speedtypist
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/678982336/item.html Textual Vent (4)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679021840/item.html Perspectives on "Casual" Games vs. Serious Games
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679025541/item.html Useless
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679264197/item.html "fuck this shit."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679390660/item.html 7 Linked SNs
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679789106/item.html Sleep Tip
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679990242/item.html Weird Dreams
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/679999918/item.html Cinnamoroll<3~
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680034519/item.html College - My Verdict Thus Far
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680127546/item.html Worst Class Ever
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680276074/item.html Tyson Mao for Prez
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680372611/item.html lulz
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680374092/item.html "Chris Betts friggin pwns."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680417397/item.html "All signs point to CS."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680563030/item.html It's Okay.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680665223/item.html Negative Time Solve 2008
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/680928745/item.html Mouse > Keyboard
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681041807/item.html A Depressing Thought
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681064230/item.html LINGS
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681451493/item.html Computer cleanup Urges
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681538332/item.html Don't Practice!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681707083/item.html "Do it for Phil, guys..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/681958222/item.html FTS
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/682155543/item.html Flies (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/682442062/item.html Disappointing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/682565277/item.html Campaign Ads
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/683038606/item.html It's over.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/684342906/item.html Christmas Letters 2008
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/684581604/item.html Lower Your Standards
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/685039715/item.html Too cute!
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/669312041/item.html Anime Log
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/686511802/item.html Presents
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/686862999/item.html ASCII Art Pwn
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/686901496/item.html Kanon 2006
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/686902103/item.html Kanon 2006 (2)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687030485/christmas-day.html Christmas 2008
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687268757/item.html Notable Entries So Far
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687331076/item.html Stanford Synopsis
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687487597/item.html Sprite Comics
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687560615/texmaster-sudden-377-commentary.html Texmaster Sudden 377 Commentary
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/687829635/item.html 2008 in Review
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/688246697/item.html "It's like the opposite of 4chan"
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/688346249/trauma-center-xss-complete.html Trauma Center Complete
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/688471041/item.html NES
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/688683367/item.html Activities and Commitment
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689123625/item.html CS and Writing
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689129082/item.html Game Design Advice
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689221173/item.html Static Electricity Tip
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689223972/keep-it-simple-stupid.html Keep It Simple Stupid
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689644750/item/ Death 391
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/689766964/walls-childhood-notes-etc/ Walls, Childhood Notes, Etc.
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/691742723/textual-vent-5/ Textual Vent (5)
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/691933777/25-things-is-nothing/ 25 gajillion facts about me
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/694310068/meme-from-erica/ Meme from Erica
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/695855735/shout-outs/ Shout-outs
http://weblog.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/695906660/facebook-shenanigans/ Facebook Shenanigans
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/695946595/scarred/ Scarred
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/696048814/hell-yeah/ "My name is Timm[ie]..."
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/696255855/gifts-and-letters/ Gifts and Letters
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/696256527/discretion/ Discretion
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/696266689/i-hate-you/ I Hate You
http://www.xanga.com/DDRKirbyISQ/700061355/i-still-care/ Note to Self
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/701603310/acuity-improvising-on-ddrkirbyisq/ Newton improvising on my songs
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/703794227/more-about-kids/ More about kids
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/703825688/selected-quotes-from-my-mother/ Selected quotes from my mother
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/704769901/narcissu/ Narcissu
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/705899152/i-win/ Start of Colemak learning
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706191867/friends/ Friends
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706192339/rsi-the-final-word--trackballs-vs-mice/ RSI, the final word / Trackballs vs Mice
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706331520/diversity/ Diversity (in music)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706332275/selected-songs-for-your-perusal/ Selected Songs for Perusal
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706332992/best-anime-opeds/ Best Anime OP/EDs
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706333140/yahoo-answers-fail/ Yahoo Answers Fail
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706429264/rut/ Rut
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706432158/anime-and-stuff/ Anime and Stuff
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/706943882/shyness/ Shyness
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/707353039/shyness-2/ Shyness (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/707354084/quotes/ Quotes
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/707746560// Stressed
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/707753254/old-timmie/ Old Timm[ie]
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/707838536/letter-statisticscalculations/ Letter Statistics/Calculations
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/708088422/spring-quarter-in-review-also-a-plug-for-the-ff4-album/ Spring Quarter in Review (also a plug for the FF4 album)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/708483570/item/ Programming
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/708878860/vg-music/ VG Music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709039354/shugo-chara/ Shugo Chara
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709145341/why-do-i-play-video-games/ Kickassery
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709212325/caffeine-adventures/ Caffeine Adventures
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709456204/quote/ uber-pro
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709516760/colemak-performance/ Colemak Performance chart
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/709972114/qwerty-effects/ qwerty effects
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710110186/the-verdict-is-out/ Clarinet vs. Flute
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710214511/lol/ Kickassery
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710358093/item/ Programming Worlds
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710372771/biting-off-as-much-as-you-should-chew/ Game Design
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710613491/colemak-success/ Colemak Success!
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710778729/resolutions-for-fall-quarter/ Resolutions for Fall Quarter
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710913880/new-song/ New Song
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/710973607/food-for-thought/ Food For Thought (SNES games)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711007119/new-song-2/ New Song (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711254627/final-fantasy-storylines/ FF Storylines
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711298237/mortal-enemy/ Mortal Enemy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711317366/rant-rant-rant-online-socializing/ Rant rant rant (online socializing) (see the comments on the original post too)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711318239/item/ Writing things off
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/711381778/another-colemak-update/ Another Colemak Update
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/712154874/item/ More on Animorphs
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/712409117/life-goals/ Life Goals
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/712890297/commitment/ Commitment
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/713431061/storytelling/ Storytelling in Video Games
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714122023/lectures/ Lectures
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714307987/d2-mod-craziness/ D2 Mod Craziness
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714349181/endings/ Endings
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714360776/a-little-snow-fairy-sugar---impressions/ A Little Snow Fairy Sugar--Impressions
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714457629/daily-article/ Stanford Daily Article
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/714906540/grade-freak/ Grade Freak
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/715750582/life-is-cool-n-stuff-n-stuff/ School is silly
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/715751110/bauuuuble/ Stanford Bubble
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/715889671/false-promises/ False Promises
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/716286722/rhythm/ Rhythm
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/716530297/people-suck/ People Suck
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/716661289/moar-hate/ Moar Hate
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/716661768/the-golden-rule/ The Golden Rule
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/716954184/windows-7--ef-a-tale-of-memories--being-unloved--responding-to-online-things/ Windows 7 / ef: a tale of memories / being unloved / responding to online things
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/717716533/item/ Feeling left out, Christmas fears, and OS-Tans
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/718376757/promises--this-quarter-in-review/ Promises / This Quarter in Review
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/718461633/estimation/ Estimation
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/718867363/item/ Japanese Catchphrases, Christmas success
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/718901161/keyblox-v100-released/ KeyBlox v1.00 Released!
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719009205/item/ Stood Up
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719036280/item/ Keeping thoughts private / Nervousness / Thought Stack
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719091075/im-a-stalker-goldmine/ stalker goldmine
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719094409/item/ "I believe in abstraction"
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719132406/conducting/ Conducting
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719191833/miyakos-phone-scene-from-ef-ep-7/ Miyako's Phone Scene
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719199491/why-fall-quarter-was-awesome/ Why Fall quarter was awesome / assorted quotes
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719230069/cyan/ Cyan
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719230882/item/ Responsiveness
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719396330/winter-break-in-review/ Winter Break in Review
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719498479/xanga--fb/ Xanga > FB
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719502531/in-defense-of-video-games/ In Defense of Video Games
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719819838/item/ Doubts about wanting to be a girl
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719824896/item/ Type A + Type B combination
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719939326/good-day/ This is how my day went
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/719992802/item/ Physics question
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720301582/names/ Names
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720316271/300-letters/ 300 Letters
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720461491/timmie-is-back/ Timm[ie] is back.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720646413/item/ Taurus/Aries
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720647098/item/ Love and Soulmates
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/720827862/item/ People being important
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/721657047/break-free/ Break Free (overprotective parenting)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/721657369/item/ Graceful Rejection
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722047528/lotsa-stuff/ Losta Stuff
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722134849/lent/ Lent
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722135991/item/ Parents knowing better
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722192964/silly-string-players/ String instruments are weird
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722536764/item/ Guy vs. Girl romance roles
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722746564/heavy-rain--resemblances-to-my-mother--timelining/ Heavy Rain / Resemblances to my Mother / Timelining
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/722987976/new-friends/ New Friends
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723051268/introversion--room-decorations--cuddling/ Introversion / Room Decorations / Cuddling
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723138690/1-rule-revisited/ 1% rule, revisited
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723673302/word-association-game-about-my-life/ Lateral - Word Association Game that Maps my Life in Graph Form
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723688907/item/ A bit of a mind dump, also about feeling vulnerable
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723704876/dreams/ Slightly Disturbing Dreams, Nightmares
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723812313/quotes-as-of-31910/ Quotes as of 3/19/10
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/723991883/winter-quarter-in-review/ Winter Quarter in Review
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724079742/meaningful-dreams/ Meaningful Dreams
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724107877/i-wanna-be-the-fangame/ I WANNA BE THE FANGAME
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724292714/norcal-tetris-meet-2/ Norcal Tetris Meet 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724296598/new-background---the-place-i-belong/ New Background - The Place I Belong
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724339529/ideal/ Girly Ideal in Anime Girls
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724506898/controversyyyyyyy/ RapeLay Controversy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724737276/item/ Ideal Romantic Partner
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/724856726/enneagram-type-analysis--personal-growth-suggestions/ Enneagram Type Analysis / Personal Growth Suggestions
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/725036677/your-face--blogging--social-dance/ Your Face / Blogging / Social Dance
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/725039757/how-do-you-do-so-much-stuff/ "How do you do so much stuff?"
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/725327447/iwbtfg-finished/ IWBTFG finished.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/725694066/item/ Happy birthday to me. (FB deactivated)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/725871566/item/ Chiptunes
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/726156243/textual-vent-6/ Textual Vent (6)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/726335914/rcc-application/ RCC Application
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/726726940/kimball-staff-roll-outs-ohc083/ Kimball Staff Rollouts, OHC083
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/727166867/mac-os-x-first-impressions/ Mac OS X First Impressions
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/727219000/item/ Ushio
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/727273870/busy/ Busy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/727319921/item/ Passive / Judging People / False Compliments
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/727950334/fanime-part-1/ Fanime, Part 1
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728084442/fanime-part-2/ Fanime, Part 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728213176/item/ Playing By Ear article
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728274733/atashi-to-yuki-san-ga-onaji-desu/ "Atashi to Yuki-san ga onaji desu..." - My response to The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya Film
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728283917/favorite-anime--characters-at-this-moment/ Favorite Anime / Characters at this moment
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728370513/wandering-son-%e6%94%be%e6%b5%aa%e6%81%af%e5%ad%90-h%c5%8dr%c5%8d-musuko/ - Wandering Son / Horo Musuko
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728597727/aaaahhhhhh/ MacBook stuff, girl-side traits emerging after puberty, Trauma Team
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728656671/item/ Issues (vague)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728658828/item/ Search for love, more on issues
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728699247/item/ Clannad After Story, emotional anime
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728826389/ohc089/ OHC089
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728828129/spring-quarter-in-review-2010/ Spring Quarter in Review (2010)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728833375/makoto-sawatari/ Makoto Sawatari
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/728879570/item/ Multithreaded Life/Sitting Down, Trauma Team
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729144465/good-code/ "good code"
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729285568/a-few-random-things-thoughts-on-trauma-team/ A Few Random Things / Thoughts on Trauma Team
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729328866/item/ Family
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729421088/ohc090/ OHC090
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729426055/phases/
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729556143/ohc091/ OHC091
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729602200/item/ Running away from home
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729617079/item/ Jaded
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729763508/mind-dump/ Mind Dump - Fear of the person I love
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729854779/item/ 2123 days
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/729903689/ohc092-ignition/ OHC092, Ignition
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730223730/ohc093/ OHC093
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730289889/on-instrumentation-in-music/ On Instrumentation in Music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730448334/a-note-to-you/ A Note to You
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730472504/flow-state/ Flow State
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730579137/ohc094/ OHC094
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730744636/dishonesty/ Dishonesty
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730800804/growing-up/ Growing Up
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730896218/ohc095/ OHC095
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730944976/item/ Shuichi Nitori
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730993120/controllers-confidence-and-more-about-flow/ Controllers, Confidence, and more about "Flow"
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/730993507/item/ Xanga posts so far
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731160725/my-love-is-a-stapler/ My Love is a Stapler
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731180856/item/ Why do I want to Be Girl?
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731541991/ohc096-ohc097/ OHC096, OHC097
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731806247/ohc098/ OHC098
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731852325/computer-woes/ Computer Woes
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731854936/sadness-is-hard-to-escape/ Sadness is Hard to Escape
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/731971768/stream-of-consciousness-post/ Stream of Consciousness Post
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732018097/i-am-otaku--thoughts-on-ssbm-characters/ I Am Otaku? / Thoughts on SSBM Characters
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732063069/gre-scores-colleges/ GRE Scores, Colleges
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732102931/ohc099/ OHC099
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732141208/oh-how-the-swarm-has-fallen/ Oh, how the Swarm has fallen
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732398973/ohc100/ OHC100
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732434356/summer-quarter-in-review/ Summer Quarter in Review (2010)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732436840/fictional-characters-i-admire/ Fictional Characters I Admire
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732562582/what-a-rush/ What a Rush... (Kimball Staff)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732733815/ohc101/ OHC101
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732734158/victimization/ Victimization
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732899918/item/ Pushy People / Helping People / Band Run / New Golden Era
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732932729/item/ CCRMA Sound Concert
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/732976959/ohc102/ OHC102
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733065801/observations-about-myself/ Observations about myself
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733170896/textual-vent/ Textual Vent (7)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733065801/observations-about-myself/ Observations About Myself
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733256743/girl-names--ohc103/ Girl Names / OHC103
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733295134/item/ Pita-Ten / Happiness / Keep It Simple / Menstrual Cycle / Part of That World
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733296389/30-day-meme---1/ 30 Day Meme - 1
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733326555/30-day-meme---2/ 30 Day Meme - 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733394780/30-day-meme---3/ 30 Day Meme - 3
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733431534/30-day-meme---4/ 30 Day Meme - 4
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733436297/shia-made-me-cry/ Shia Made Me Cry...
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733454141/busy/ Busy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733508319/30-day-meme---5/ 30 Day Meme - 5
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733526030/ohc104/ OHC104
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733533141/30-day-meme---6/ 30 Day Meme - 6
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733613656/busy-2-san-jose-spirit-of-japantown-festival/ Busy (2), San Jose Spirit of Japantown Festival
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733673926/30-day-meme---7-8-9/ 30 Day Meme - 7, 8, 9
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733692784/30-day-meme---10/ 30 Day Meme - 10
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733728909/30-day-meme---11/ 30 Day Meme - 11 / Romance Cycle
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733766139/30-day-meme---12/ 30 Day Meme - 12
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733852666/ohc105--30-day-meme---13-14-15-16--cs107--jammix/ OHC105 / 30 Day Meme - 13, 14, 15, 16 / CS107 / Jammix
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733893749/item/ Dream / Guardian Angel / Standards
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/733975238/30-day-meme---17/ 30 Day Meme - 17
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734015122/30-day-meme---18/ 30 Day Meme - 18
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734019108/item/ What animal best defines your personality?
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734058238/30-day-meme---19/ 30 Day Meme - 19
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734063590/30-day-meme---20/ 30 Day Meme - 20
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734148558/db-db-ab-eb/ Db-Db-Ab-Eb
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734192995/rolling-girl/ Rolling Girl
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734216012/30-day-meme---21-22-23/ 30 Day Meme - 21, 22, 23
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734320073/smarter-decisions--benefit-of-the-doubt--anime-destiny/ Smarter Decisions / Benefit of the Doubt / Anime Destiny
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734353974/30-day-meme---24-25/ 30 Day Meme - 24, 25
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734361305/ohc106/ OHC106
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734408082/ohc107/ OHC107
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734414100/30-day-meme---26-27/ 30 Day Meme - 26, 27
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734464731/yume-nikki--di-gi-charat--koge-donbo-harry-potter--cosplay-meetup-tomorrow/ Yume Nikki / Di Gi Charat / Koge Donbo Harry Potter / Cosplay Meetup Tomorrow
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734545769/christmas-letters-2010/ Chrstmas Letters 2010 (planning)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734590504/being-timmie-is-a-privilege-not-a-duty/ "Being Timm[ie] is a Privilege, not a Duty."
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734618559/musical-emotion/ Musical Emotion
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/734731421/ohc108/ OHC108
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/735111623/item/ Draw With Me
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/735111956/30-day-meme---28-29-30/ 30 Day Meme - 28, 29, 30
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/735112245/ohc109/ OHC109
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/735848240/ohc110-ohc111/ OHC110, OHC111
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/735996812/item/ Thanksgiving Break, Norcal Cosplay Meetup November 2010
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/736671488/ohc112/ OHC112
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/737043271/finals-week/ Finals Week
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/737043896/luck/ Luck
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/737193289/ohc113/ OHC113
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/737918069/item/ Recettear
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/737924611/ohc115/ OHC115
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738044169/item/ SSBM Level-Up
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738080095/more-on-ssbm/ More on SSBM
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738104583/revenge-of-the-titans/ Revenge of the Titans
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738295189/fall-quarter-in-review-2010/ Fall Quarter in Review (2010)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738329980/canvas-2-kirbys-epic-yarn-2/ Canvas 2, Kirby's Epic Yarn (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738702476/boy-side-talkativeness-social-dance-1-take-2/ Boy Side Talkativeness, Social Dance 1 Take 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/738791651/ohc117/ OHC117
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/739324136/tetris-vs-speedcubing--talking-about-games/ Tetris vs. Speedcubing / Talking about Games
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/739458349/reading-literary-painting-a-picture-vs-lightvisual-novels/ Reading, Literary Painting a Picture vs. Light/Visual Novels
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/739524125/ohc119/ OHC119
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/739524377/jhcompo---magfest-edition/ JHCompo - MAGFest Edition
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/739983714/popularity/ Popularity
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740222313/ohc120-thesimulcollab/ OHC120, thesimulcollab
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740279150/popularity-2-bloggingims/ Popularity (2), Blogging/IMs
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740459816/japanese-homework/ Japanese Homework
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740551379/jammix/ Jammix
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740592985/ohc121/ OHC121
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/740621533/brawl-sux/ Brawl Sux
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741090531/viennese-ball-2011/ Viennese Ball 2011
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741221920/ohc122/ OHC122
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741568188/ohc123/ OHC123
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741582067/the-enneagram-revisited/ The Enneagram, Revisited
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741733127/animation-on-display---day-1/ Animation on Display (AOD), Day 1
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/741815495/animation-on-display-day-2/ Animation on Display (AOD), Day 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/742060439/pop-music/ Pop Music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/742210288/close-your-mouth-open-your-ears/ Close your mouth, open your ears
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743059401/item/ Irrational Fears
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743103781/japanese-conversation-final/ Japanese Conversation Final
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743136177/primal-scream/ Primal Scream
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743406485/digital-vs-analog-controls/ Digital Vs. Analog Controls
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743423755/ohc124-ohc125-ohc126/ OHC124, OHC125, OHC126
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743792616/item/ Tsundere Side/Supporting Characters
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743796172/magic/ Magic
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/743904754/ohc127/ OHC127
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/744256043/ohc128/ OHC128
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/744383190/winter-quarter-in-review-2010-2011/ Winter Quarter in Review (2010-2011)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/744387264/item/ Less Time
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/744786358/cleaning/ Cleaning
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/744848899/item/ Final Fantasy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745156328/item/ Mainstream music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745194620/item/ Natural Defense Mechanism
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745350889/item/ Changing Social Circle
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745353193/ohc129-ohc130/ OHC129, OHC130
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745445514/nanatsuiro-drops/ Nanatsuiro Drops
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745671402/item/ Video Game Music Quote
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745746855/longing/ Longing
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745774204/item/ But...the Future Refused to Change.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/745996520/item/ Confidence in Leading
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746017035/kimball-new-staff-rollouts/ Kimball New Staff Rollouts
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746239391/item/ Dependency, Letting Go, Tension
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746271228/discography-unjammix/ Discography, Unjammix
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746339766/ohc131-ohc132/ OHC131, OHC132
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746408489/strangers-again/ Strangers, Again
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746448829/this-world/ This World
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746482479/item/ Angel
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746543893/hourou-musuko-anime/ Hourou Musuko Anime
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746674707/glowsticking-performance/ Glowsticking Performance
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746678628/forever/ Forever
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746680405/ohc133/ OHC133
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746708427/to-the-follows/ To the Follows
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746794506/loved/ Loved
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/746997564/love-language-revisited/ Love Language (revisited)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747065642/item/ Senior Formal, Dancing, You Belong With Me
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747265633/big-dance-2011/ Big Dance (2011)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747267092/ohc134/ OHC134
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747268492/item/ I'm a Bad Staff Member
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747626043/ohc135/ OHC135
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/747697370/coward/ Coward
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748232459/item/ People who seem like they might be cool
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748375947/arms-length/ Arm's Length
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748378707/try-harder/ Try Harder
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748527524/japanese-homework-again/ Japanese Homework again
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748602700/ohc136/ OHC136
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/748975784/fanime-2011/ Fanime 2011
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749098199/social-media-is-ruining-everything/ Social Media Is Ruining Everything
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749099725/on-crying--feeling-like-a-piece-of-crap/ On Crying / Feeling Like A Piece Of Crap
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749232484/item/ Brainstorming Meaningful Online Interactions
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749265402/item/ Single-Player Social Dance
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749336555/ohc137-ohc138/ OHC137, OHC138
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749438239/early-christmas--stepping-back--ready/ Early Christmas / Stepping Back / Ready
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749761242/growing-up/ Growing Up
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749763280/one-more-thing/ One More Thing (Imbalance in Relationships)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/749840448/new-beginnings/ New Beginnings
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/750413812/spring-quarter-in-review-2011/ Spring Quarter in Review (2011)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/750543377/not-going-to-take-that-anymore/ Not going to take that anymore
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/750912071/tower-of-heaven/ Tower of Heaven
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751048095/ohc141/ OHC141
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751061466/item/ Pop Music Lyrics, Rhythm in Dancing, Social Dance Social Circles
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751498176/ohc142/ OHC142
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751605113/item/ Dedication / Different
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751853719/ignored/ Ignored
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751855620/item/ Spambots are Better Friends
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751856705/item/ 1% Rule, Yet Again
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/751947028/item/ The Fun of Sequence Dances
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752290657/item/ Emotes / Growing / Dance / Introspection / Too Loud / Another Angel
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752293109/item/ Souleye Quote
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752359758/ohc143/ OHC143
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752423434/google-a-chance-to-reflect/ Google+: A Chance to Reflect
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752701858/item/ Procrastination
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/752765406/ohc144/ OHC144
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753038179/item/ Empathy / Connecting / Judgment and Social Pressures / Written words vs. Vocal words
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753426747/item/ Google+'s Circles
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753428313/ohc145/ OHC145
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753633085/ohc146/ OHC146
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753769819/timelinetxt/ timeline.txt
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753770028/ohc147/ OHC147
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/753801639/so-you-want-to-be-a-grand-master/ So you want to be a grand master?
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754013206/ohc148/ OHC148
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754018862/concentration/ Concentration
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754062022/item/ Social Media: What Am I Doing!?
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754274602/ohc149/ OHC149
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754334380/letter-writing/ Letter Writing
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754446191/fb-usage/ FB Usage
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754517467/ohc150/ OHC150
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754666998/decomposition/ Decomposition
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754794544/indie-game-highlights/ Indie Game Highlights - Value, Narrow, The Unicated
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754811677/ohc151/ OHC151
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754895151/ohc152/ OHC152
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/754918921/communicating-speaking-math-and-what-kind-of-cs-person-i-am/ Communicating, Speaking, Math, and what kind of CS person I am
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755108969/ohc153/ OHC153
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755256228/christmas-letters-2011-advisory/ Christmas Letters 2011 Advisory
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755265895/item/ Dream Cry
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755326073/ohc154/ OHC154
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755404218/item/ Dumb and Smart
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755581691/ohc155/ OHC155
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755748217/ohc156/ OHC156
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755750085/item/ Writing
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755781780/the-stanley-parable/ The Stanley Parable
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755850994/pushback-pressure/ Pushback Pressure
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755851118/connection/ Connection
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755860403/ohc157/ OHC157
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/755892454/item/ Abyss / Personalities
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756007249/ohc158/ OHC158
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756185808/ohc159/ OHC159
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756397756/ohc160/ OHC160
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756651708/item/ Posting Less, Isolation, etc.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756680101/ohc161/ OHC161
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756827791/trance/ Trance
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756828108/expression/ Expression
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/756852011/ohc162/ OHC162
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757060640/ohc163/ OHC163
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757276771/ohc164/ OHC164
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757291684/from-scratch/ "From scratch"
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757524011/ohc165/ OHC165
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757587144/self-fullfillment/ Self-fullfillment in Games / parallel with society
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757763599/ohc166/ OHC166
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757796460/personality-types/ Personality Types
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757819305/ohc167/ OHC167
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757840179/me-time/ Me Time
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757840717/gamers/ Gamers
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757951172/fall-quarter-in-review-2011/ Fall Quarter in Review (2011)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/757997522/sorting-hat-stuff/ Sorting Hat stuff
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758120562/ohc168/ OHC168
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758120830/ohc169/ OHC169
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758121100/item/ Biggest Fan
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758264374/prices/ Prices
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758291559/ohc170/ OHC170
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758331006/disney/ Disney
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758546290/item/ Wholeness
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758548194/item/ Sight or Hearing
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758604372/ohc171/ OHC171
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758636873/item/ I've got it down.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758694271/that-damned-stigma-about-talking-about-games/ That damned stigma about talking about games
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758747386/ohc172/ OHC172
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758824323/relationships/ Relationships
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758824576/ohc173/ OHC173
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/758929710/falling/ Falling
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759093989/ohc174/ OHC174
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759258382/makoto-sawatari-2/ Makoto Sawatari (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759296734/ohc175/ OHC175
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759342141/ohc176/ OHC176
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759416163/item/ High Standards, Relationships, Validation, Dance as a Lens, Together
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759495817/ohc177/ OHC177
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759526733/item/ I will do my best to express myself!
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759526805/item/ Asking questions, knee-jerk responses
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759527909/item/ Waltz perspective
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/759947902/mighty-ducks/ Mighty Ducks
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760254053/cs248---best-game/ CS248 - Best Game
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760256697/disney-heroines/ Disney Heroines
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760258667/ohc178/ OHC178
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760258910/ohc179/ OHC179
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760423845/ohc180/ OHC180
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760564925/katawa-shoujo/ Katawa Shoujo
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760801635/winter-quarter-in-review-2012/ Winter Quarter in Review (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/760923227/ohc181/ OHC181
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761187248/item/ A different sort of language
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761406476/ohc182/ OHC182
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761408739/ohc183/ OHC183
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761671076/stood-up-2/ Stood Up (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761708524/item/ Timeline (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761708857/item/ Life without Social Media
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761710023/item/ Girl of my Dreams/What I Want/etc.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/761950176/ohc184/ OHC184
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762003637/sword-and-sworcery/ Sword and Sworcery
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762169017/im-such-an-isfj/ I'm such an ISFJ.
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762220117/ohc185/ OHC185
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762301912/item/ Friendships/relationships, Confident, Nice Guy
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762432913/ohc186/ OHC186
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762703747/big-dance-2012/ Big Dance (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762951656/item/ ISFJ description
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/762984049/item/ Precious 4 people
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/763380098/fanime---day-1/ Fanime - Day 1 (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/763433890/fanime---day-2/ Fanime - Day 2 (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/763455250/iwbtg/ IWBTG (3)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/763457285/item/ Someone Just for Me
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/763478851/fanime---day-3/ Fanime - Day 3 (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/764943800/brave/ Brave
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765041520/japan-day-1---arrival-shinjuku-hotel/ Japan Day 1
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765108143/japan-day-2---tokyo-bus-tour/ Japan Day 2
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765170513/japan-day-3---shinjuku/ Japan Day 3
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765236114/japan-day-4---sanrio-puroland/ Japan Day 4
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765288419/japan-day-5---akihabara/ Japan Day 5
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765345942/japan-day-6---harajukushibuya/ Japan Day 6
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765383539/japan-day-7---ikebukuro/ Japan Day 7
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/765448338/japan-day-8---chuoginza/ Japan Day 8
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/766025983/spring-quarter-in-review-2012/ Spring Quarter in Review (2012)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/766048958/japan-overall/ Japan Overall
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/766831004/social-dance-music/ Social Dance Music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/767455359/going-the-extra-mile/ Going the extra mile
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/767727222/strobo-nights/ Strobo Nights
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/767949359/which-am-i---starcraftwarcraft/ "Which Am I?" - Starcraft/Warcraft
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/767950120/which-am-i---magic-the-gathering/ "Which Am I?" - Magic: The Gathering
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/768564914/why-do-i-write-music/ Why Do I Write Music?
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/768613856/item/ Figuring It Out
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/769811144/item/ Lesser Greater vs. Equal, Relations, Fear
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/770272884/item/ Ms. Lee's quote
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/770847791/2012/ 2012
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/770848145/item/ 2012 (2)
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/771710307/item/ Musicality
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/771873345/item/ Drawing vs. Music
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772098267/dancebit-teaser/ DanceBit Teaser
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772299743/perfection/ Perfection
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772466366/item/ Emotions swirling around
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772768138/item/ Catching Up
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772768344/item/ Characters
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/772894117/my-voice/ My Voice
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/773156568/item/ Music Writing, Passive
http://ddrkirbyisq.xanga.com/773583949/item/ Songs that make you cry