I didn't do toooo bad, given how hard it was for me to even get out of bed in the morning.  After that whole struggle, I did manage to do the work I needed to do, take care of two meals, I solved a steamdeck issue for Rhythm Quest and finished up the easy/hard difficulty charting for level 4-4.  I didn't check on the chickies today; that'll have to wait until tomorrow when it should be less warm.  I'll also make a stop to the donations center and head to Teance to go work there -- either finishing up my pixel artwork or doing more Rhythm Quest charting probably, or maybe some letter writing.

I've been doing really good in ALTTPR after coming back to it.  The other day I ran one of the seeds from the gold sword bracket races that the top mentees are doing and beat the times there, and today I got what will probably be the fastest time in the /r/alttpr weekly.  Not to say that some amount of luck isn't involved in that, but I felt like I played well, too.  It's just a good feeling.

There's this weird feeling of balance between being "who you've always been" vs pushing yourself to be something different.  It's important because of the whole "what you do defines who you are" thing.  Honestly, it's...not always super difficult to find that balance, though.  I think sometimes you find that you're really just super aligned with what you want to do.  Those are the times when you don't even really think about it because everything just makes sense.  Sometimes you "already are" someone different, it's just not something you realized through action yet.

But then there are those times when you =think= you're super aligned with it because you "should" be, and then that's where things can get into trouble.  Sometimes you're just not ready, or sometimes you actually just don't want to.  "Fake it till you make it" can work sometimes, I mean it's good practice if nothing else, but like, that's not really just the answer all the time.  You can of course "work on" who you are, but you can't just shove everything else in the closet and expect it to just stay hidden forever right?