It's going ok!  I'm somehow hanging in there despite juggling the different things happening in my life.  The week(s) after coming back from my work trip were when I was feeling emotionally low, and the week leading up to Pagan Bunny Burn was when I was feeling like I wasn't on top of things anymore.

It's good to have at least a partial reversal of that.  I may not be on top of everything, but I'm no longer behind -- surprisingly, actually.  The emotional lows are gone too, thanks to some care and support from...all around me, to be honest.  Even the weather seemed to turn a new page and welcome me with some respite from the shining sun, reminding me that yes, things can still be good.

It was an okay day today.  I didn't eat that much in the afternoon, but made a somewhat successful dinner, had some white tea, and finished up my pixel art drawing for the month, which also meant that I handled the monthlies album release.  Fixed a few bugs for Rhythm Quest as well...

The GCC dance I'm hosting is coming up in less than a week!  To be completely honest, I've not that much idea how it will go.  Like, I'm doing all the things I remember doing before, when I hosted these types of events, but in the end I can't help but find myself wondering, "how many people are actually going to show up to this thing", along with "do people still like these dances and songs..."  Well, I guess better to find these things out at this event than at JaSmix, heh.

Putting together the setlist has been an interesting experience, for some reason it feels like 3 hours is so long, whereas before I felt like I always had too many songs for the time.  Maybe it's because as I go on I trim more and more (which is just a good practice anyways), maybe it's because I've gotten more picky and choosy about exactly what I want to play.  Or maybe I'm a little hesitant and conservative because I don't feel 100% plugged into the crowd.  It was a little simpler before we started doing Bachata and Merengue as part of the intro series.  And when we had more of a lindy hopper presence, I guess.  It's nice that we have more WCS interest, but even then, I walk this tightrope between things that would be enjoyed by the deep-into-wcs crowd vs the people who are just kinda adjacent to it.  Then again, maybe that's always been the case and it's just been a while for me.

Well, at least I'm making progress towards something.  It's this and the lesson plan that need to come together this week, and...fortunately, I'm feeling like there is time enough to do it all.  If worse comes to worst I'll skip out on MCS this week, but I don't really see needing to; it would be nice, actually, if I can get things at least halfway ironed out before then.

Did this past week's ALTTPR run and it was...okay, I didn't really get to explore my new hypotheses/routing strategies much at all, but that's fine.  There's always next time after all.  After this GCC dance I feel like (besides ever more Rhythm Quest work) one of the main things I'll be focusing on in my time between things going on (like another trip coming up) is ALTTPR, both getting ready for the kickoff race I'll be in in June but also compiling more data and resources, for both myself and my future mentees.

Unfortunately, I'm getting to bed late again, but at least I seem to be holding onto a good deal of hope in these coming times.  Sometimes I get a twinge of the urge to just "give in" and focus on nothing more than what I actually want, but, for now, I guess I still have some healthy energy to be my good ol self, trying to keep steady.