15 hours in and I've finally hit the end of the song I'm working on. I can't wait to get this released.
Saturday, June 24, 2017
Thursday, June 22, 2017
An insane amount of effort has gone into this song so far, at least for my standards. It's definitely going to be the capstone of the entire album, representing pretty much everything that I ever wanted to accomplish and achieve with it. It's already been multiple sessions of working on it and it's still not at an end. Might be close? Not sure, it'll really depend on how the music decide to flow the next time I sit down. I don't think the composition process has ever been so much of a "journey" for me though. It's quite something.
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Monday, June 19, 2017
When I think about my past, I am often filled with strong feelings of guilt or gratitude. I can't help but echo those sentiments to the people who are involved, saying either "sorry" or "thank you". It is not only a form of coping but also a way of honoring those memories.
Though it's important to not get "stuck" on the past, it is perhaps equally important to express one's feelings toward what has happened on their road to the present. There was a video that I saw a number of years back about happiness and mindfulness/gratitude where people were asked to pick someone very important to them and write out why this person was so important. The twist is that they then hand a phone to the subject and tell them to read their letter out loud to the person they wrote about. You can sort of intuit what happens next, of course. I think that is a sort of thing that I value -- the expression of these feelings.
Monday, June 12, 2017
Overrated/Underrated Songs
I actually don't often get personal feedback on a specific level from other people on my music (besides generic "wow this is cool"), but as an artist I still definitely feel like some of my works are underrated or overrated. And some are also "justly liked". In this post I'll go through a handful of them. Audio links included!
Tuesday, June 6, 2017
Your presence keeps me safe. Keeps me from feeling scared, though there is everything to be afraid of.
Thursday, June 1, 2017
Life is difficult enough as it is...
I guess we should try and put ourselves in spaces and situations where we are surrounded by supportive people, and try to be supportive ourselves. Perhaps I have been underestimating just how important that is.
I'm feeling kind of "tired of life", right now, just sort of off of it. Not from anything in particular, but just lots of little things. Accumulated negativity, you could call it.
In other news, I'm working on putting all of my LD post-mortems on my website, and I've also been watching the Madoka anime again -- starting with the main TV series, which I'm already up to ep 9 on. Also following through with analysis and commentary from the wiki too. Maybe I'll write up some reflections once I'm done with it all.
But yes, somehow it feels as though there is really a lack of good energy in my life right now. I think that's why it feels like I just want to be alone.
Are lambs better than people?