Personality Types (2018)

It's been a while, so I thought I'd go and retake some personality tests and see how my results are doing.

MBTI

From https://www.16personalities.com:

24% Extraverted - 76% Introverted

28% Intuition - 72% Sensing

19% Thinking - 81% Feeling

100% Judging - 0% Prospecting (lol!)

(40% Assertive - 60% Turbulent)

From http://similarminds.com:

My last recorded results that I can find are from way back in Dec 2011.  The results from back then:

Introverted (I) 75.76% Extroverted (E) 24.24%

Sensing (S) 64.1% Intuitive (N) 35.9%

Feeling (F) 66.67% Thinking (T) 33.33%

Judging (J) 75% Perceiving (P) 25%

Apparently the questions on this test are really bad for me now because:

Extroverted (E) 50% Introverted (I) 47%

Sensing (S) 72% Intuitive (N) 28%

Thinking (T) 62% Feeling (F) 42%

Judging (J) 93% Perceiving (P) 20%

Which types me as an ESTJ, which is completely off-base, lol.

Let's try one more, for fun:

From http://www3.psychcentral.com:

25% Extraverted - 75% Introverted

34% Intuition - 66% Sensing

46% Thinking - 54% Feeling

19% Perceiving - 71% Judging

My MBTI type as an ISFJ is rock solid though; that's really not ever going anywhere.  I think the exception is that for a lot of these tests I can imagine showing as more Extraverted since I am a lot more comfortable with social situations now.  They are definitely not energizing to me though; when I am stressed or in a bad place the last thing I want to do is interact with other people in a social setting.

Enneagram

From https://www.eclecticenergies.com:

Type 4 - 12

Type 1 - 10.7

Type 2 - 8.7

Type 6 - 6.7

Type 3 - 6.4

Type 5 - 5

I guess my Enneagram is sort of all over the place nowadays.  The last results I have are from Feb 2011, and look like this:

Type 6 - 8

Type 2 - 6

Type 4 - 5

Type 9 - 5

Type 5 - 4

Type 1 - 3

Type 7 - 2

Type 3 - 2

Type 8 - 1

Before that I identified super strongly as a Type 2 (Helper / Giver), and really was that type of person actually, to a fault.  Actually, Type 4's direction of integration/growth is supposed to be 4, which curiously is my highest score currently.  Seems too good to be true...maybe?  I do feel like I am more self-nurturing/aware than I used to be...

Reading over the type descriptions, I honestly still feel like Type 2 is the only one that really fits (???), but I think it is worth taking a moment to see what has changed that makes it a bit less obvious than it used to be.

I think before, when I was waiting for "those wings to lift me gently from the stream", as Kiki said, I was always felt with an intense desire to be loved, and to generously give to others in an effort to establish my self-value and in hopes of fulfilling that desire.  One of the biggest differences between me now and the me of 7 years ago is that I no longer feel an overwhelming fear of being and abandoned and unloved.  Of course, I still fear change/loss, and also failure, and I think the core fear of worthlessness (your failure makes you worthless and unloved) still speaks to me.  But I think

Still, type 6 being called the "Loyalist" makes me drawn to it by title alone, haha.  Consistency above all else...yes, I love consistency.  Maybe I could be a type 6 after all.  Who knows?  I don't...I could be a type 4?  Blah.

Ocean / Big 5

From http://www.outofservice.com:

My last recorded results for this are from way back in Dec 2011.  Here are the changes:

Openness          30 -> 24

Conscientiousness 97 -> 100

Extraversion       1 -> 1

Agreeableness     74 -> 82

Neuroticism       14 -> 95 (!)

That 100% Conscientiousness and 1% Extraversion, lol!  I love it.  I didn't actually expect to get 1% for extraversion because I honestly feel like I've become =significantly= more outgoing and sociable in the past 7 years, but hey, I'll take it.  The real shocker here is how the heck I managed to go from 14% Neuroticism to 95% when in reality it feels like it should have been the other way around!

I guess what this really is pointing to is the fact that in the past even though I was having a lot of hard times, I would generally keep it under wraps and stay "calm".  I feel like back in those years, I was very much this presence that was very quiet and reserved, yet also had a lot of issues bubbling up within.  Kiki described it very well when she said that "While you were quiet and sometimes a very calming presence, I remember you were quite loud inside that fragile body, with a wildly beating heart, wondering when someone else's wings would fold around your shoulders and lift you gently from the stream."  I am definitely less calm in that particular manner nowadays (e.g. I am way more laid-back instead of being very reserved)...perhaps I am just more aware of my own lapses of judgment and failures of character...before I probably was not even ready to confront them, but now I am pretty aware of the fact that I still really have problems dealing with failure, etc. etc.