Alright well, I've actually not been doing well, not really.  I keep feeling tired and a little depressed, and uneasy, which probably means I've been burning out a bit or something, despite my attempts to try and relax and not worry about being so uptight?  It's some sort of weird feeling that something is wrong, that things are not going to work out, and that I can't screw up, or shouldn't show it, like Elsa or Rumi or whatever??  I keep on thinking to myself that I need to figure out what's wrong so I can fix everything, but maybe that's actually not the move and I'm "supposed to" stop trying to do whatever I'm "supposed to" do or whatever.

On the plus side, I'm feeling a lot better than I was a couple of hours ago!  Sure, the flamin' hot dill pickle cheetos probably weren't the healthiest thing to be eating, but they tasted good and I was happy eating them while having a laugh watching ShinyZeni play "Uptroid Down" (a romhack of Super Metroid that's mirrored vertically, apparently it's gotten some pretty impressive updates).  I'm having round 3 of the chicken soup that I made from leftover thigh bones, broccoli stems, and some leftover fennel, and it's nice and comforting.

I've been working really hard recently!  I sank a bunch of hours into Rhythm Quest work, including putting out a new devlog and getting one step closer to being rid of Discord woes by officially transitioning bug reports onto Github.  I finished a letter yesterday, scheduled a car interior service for tomorrow morning (should have gone to bed earlier, I guess...) -- something I've been meaning to do for ages -- did some good grocery shopping, did the laundry, ordered some more gift wrap online, and today I spent most of my day working on my monthly pixel art drawing.  It feels good to put a bunch of time into something and see it actually develop and pay off.  I was really concerned when I started because it seemed the drawing was kinda just off everywhere and I was kind of fighting a few parts to look okay, but somehow it's really turned the corner and it's looking pretty decent now.  Seems like I've been doing ONLY drawings of Sayuri for the past 4 months, but honestly, I'm here for it.  Might as well get more practice with something I kinda know how to draw, and see progress that way.  I can really feel some of the learnings coming in, which is a nice feeling.  There's still more work to be done on this piece, though, maybe tomorrow?

What way do I need to live to be relaxed, happy, tranquil?  Do I just need more quiet time, whether it be alone or shared?  Do I need to reconnect with my past and mourn what is gone?  Do I need to get away, or do I need to go closer?  What is it that the inner me wants?